I now despise women but I still think about the same girl on a daily basis

[Eternatus]

Someone from 3 years ago, oneitis. I was just betaorbiting at my job and being humiliated. She took my innocence and gave me the Blackpill.

The idea of the Blackpill is something so tied to determinism that corrodes every aspect of life and personal growth, career prospects, if u could even see wageslaving as one.

Im a hollow vessel of a man that doesn’t exist anymore, I’m the media on my screen, I don’t have passions, self, memories. I don’t even know what I’m trying to preserve, why do I fear so much for my health even if I spend my time in bed.

I ve achieved full detachment but I still have the reverb of her name in my head like some sort of illness, I know it all yet I still suffer for being a defect no matter how cold I get.

I hope my voices will grow forgiving.

 

[SCP-Gorillion]

Oneitescel ?

 

[Caichan]

I lost the ability to get a oneitis when i realized it would never go anywhere and its pointless

 

[Sir Silentium]

Similar to myself, I kept thinking about this one girl for 2 years. Then eventually it faded away, distanced myself from blackpill a bit. Then a few months ago there is this other very young girl, sparked blackpill thoughts again.

 

[Eternatus]

Can someone explain what oneitist is? I’m new to this forum is it a whore you dated once but she didn’t care about you? Cuz if so I had that experience

Unrequited love from a person you've developed a morbid obsession with, but you're already convinced they'll never be interested. This is the most striking proof of the validity of the Blackpill.

You can't love someone so much and be rejected without there being an underlying skeletal problem. You're doomed to eternal abandonment.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I can't recall feeling anything like that for a woman, especially after I became fully aware of the extent of depravity within their nature. You should forget about that girl; otherwise, it will bring you nothing but turmoil and mental anguish.