Theory I need to start administering some form of self harm

[Pikacel]

If I whip myself with a belt a certain number of times every day based on the amount of important commitments I discarded in order to LDAR, maybe this will motivate me to get shit done

Because mental self discipline on it’s own just isn’t cutting it. I need to take drastic measures to force myself into doing things somehow, otherwise I just doomscroll and sleep by default

Doing things is such a chore to me, I need to treat it like a punishment I’m inflicting on myself

 

[Max Doltman]

this doesnt sound like its going to help you

 

[Wrath]

bruh

 

[Dead End]

If you aren't disciplined enough to achieve your regular commitments, do you think you'd be disciplined enough to enforce inflicting damage upon yourself from failing to meet them?

 

[Pikacel]

this doesnt sound like its going to work

Anything would work compared to what I’m doing now

I think the many years of rotting has made me so used to a lifestyle of doing ABSOLUTELY nothing (I don’t even clean my room or shave) that I think I’m being productive and living my life despite doing absolutely FUCK ALL. It’s so fucked when I think about it

If you aren't disciplined enough to achieve your regular commitments, do you think you'd be disciplined enough to enforce inflicting damage upon yourself from failing to meet them?

Yeah you’re right

 

[Caichan]

chillax buddy

 

[gluttony]

foid trait don't do it, just don't find another cope

 

[Pikacel]

foid trait don't do it, just don't find another cope

I’ll just try to pressure myself into getting shit done

Self harm is a cope

 

[gluttony]

I’ll just try to pressure myself into getting shit done

Self harm is a cope

maybe do something less painful

 

[outerdarkness]

It won’t help.

Signed,
A guy with a dozen SH scars on each arm.

 

[Pikacel]

maybe do something less painful

It’s too late tbh I always try to push myself then go back to LDARing

And the fact that I need to tardrage myself into doing basic menial tasks like filling out forms or doing a little exercise is showing. Normal people do 50-100x more than this

 

[gluttony]

It’s too late tbh I always try to push myself then go back to LDARing

And the fact that I need to tardrage myself into doing basic menial tasks like filling out forms or doing a little exercise is showing. Normal people do 50-100x more than this

okay go do whatever man

 

[Bulbasaur]

don't

 

[Pikacel]

It won’t help.

Signed,
A guy with a dozen SH scars on each arm.

Well we torture ourselves mentally but I guess physical won’t do anything better

And I don’t have the balls for self harm, it’s over I’m too pussy to do anything including meaningful things

 

[Pikacel]

I give up. I vowed to better myself so I’d no longer be a laughing stock and 4 years later I’m an even BIGGER laughing stock

How can I be so incapable of following through on anything

Why am I a mentally ill pile of shit who can rot like a corpse for 9 months without even noticing

What the FUCK is wrong with me

 

[pauseforever]

SH that leave wounds or bruises will make you feel lazier. The body probably diverts energy to heal itself. For the temporary boost of motivation, try putting your hands in icy water