Venting I Need To Change My Life And Turn It Around

[DarkStar]

Ok so long thread but whatever, to anyone who reads this and actually gives me advice or just support in "good luck" or whatever thank you and I will remember it.

Having An Existential Crisis|Worst I've Felt in Forever

I feel as if I am slowly, slowly cracking mentally and being consumed by just everything: The blackpill, Socio-Cultural/political circumstances currently, past failures I will address here, my ND status which fucked it all up, and so much more. I've cried a bit recently, first time in years in...

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But basically, I have hit the lowest I have ever felt in a long long time. I feel that I have wasted tons of time on this forum due to my addictive personality(byproduct of adhd) and also the fact I fell into a big "LDAR" mindset at the time due to being dissatisfied with the few "friendships" I had irl(yes I socialmaxxed but it was kinda draining and I didn't feel connected to them) and also because the forum unironically was 100x better back then for many reasons, which combined with certain copes led me to LDAR too hard, neglect studies which led to me fucking up a significant assignment. Granted, I am glad I did learn some of what I did here, and I probably would have gotten wasted/sidetracked due to NDness and feeling down in general at the time due to various factors, but then I also feel had I not been blackpilled or joined I may have done a bit better. Regardless, I know my likely ADD and other issues are to blame so at least I can maybe address those in a better way now.

I basically live in a cycle of being constantly stuck inside my head over past mistakes, how different things can be, and wallowing in self pity which I hate myself for. Also, I don't enjoy this place as I used to, no one gives a shit about anything with effort and no one gives a shit on anyones issues. In fact, i'm worried some users i've argued with will use my failures against me, they should just unironically end their lives tbh.

No one here wants to discuss the blackpill, share personal stories, or discuss anything at all interesting. I hate how we embrace "brainrot" or just let it consume us, since maybe, just maybe, if we tried to keep ourselves active via discussing shit we would feel better.

Anyhow, I need to make decisions and start making actual leaps to change my life instead of giving a shit about an obscure forum full of faceless people. I'm considering redoing some parts of college, and I have a cybersec course I need to take action with, and rebuild my life from the cesspool i've fallen into.

@PersonalityChad @The Notorious SLAV @AtrociousCitizen @gluttony @Paladin @Old Ironsides @unhingedsamsung @weaselbomber @SilentShadow @Grodd @Skelly

 

[Skelly]

share personal stories

I dont like random people seeing my posts

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Good luck with your endeavors.

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

That is brutal. I have ADHD as well (late diagnosed), and I think about this too. Unfortunately you can't cure it which is the worst part. I don't know how you can fix it. Getting me to commit to any project is hard and jew meds don't stop it. I had Ritalin then Adderall and neither of them helped. Maybe a general ADHD forum could help with this.

 

[ItsOverMan]

Maybe try detoxing from the forum for a month and see if it makes you more productive. You could try blocking the site in your hosts file or a website blocker extension (hosts file works better for me because it's a little harder to undo it when temptation hits), but it will also take some self-discipline to get out of the habit of coming here. Good luck.

 

[Grodd]

Good luck bro i wish you all the best

 

[Paladin]

I dont like random people seeing my posts

This is why I only make threads in sewers now. Less users that I don't like than in the rest of the forum and no lurkers

 

[IWWorkER]

I have hit the lowest I have ever felt in a long long time. I feel that I have wasted tons of time on this forum due to my addictive personality(byproduct of adhd) and also the fact I fell into a big "LDAR" mindset at the time due to being dissatisfied with the few "friendships" I had irl(yes I socialmaxxed but it was kinda draining and I didn't feel connected to them) and also because the forum unironically was 100x better back then for many reasons, which combined with certain copes led me to LDAR too hard, neglect studies which led to me fucking up a significant assignment. Granted, I am glad I did learn some of what I did here, and I probably would have gotten wasted/sidetracked due to NDness and feeling down in general at the time due to various factors, but then I also feel had I not been blackpilled or joined I may have done a bit better. Regardless, I know my likely ADD and other issues are to blame so at least I can maybe address those in a better way now.

I think I have more or less the same problem, and I also tried being more social, and it lead me to the psych ward, but it got better now.

Anyhow, I need to make decisions and start making actual leaps to change my life instead of giving a shit about an obscure forum full of faceless people. I'm considering redoing some parts of college, and I have a cybersec course I need to take action with, and rebuild my life from the cesspool i've fallen into.

I don't know much about you but I can give the 2 things that's makes me goes through shitty life so far:
The first was leaving college and getting into the workplace, for a few reasons: I wanted to learn certain technical skills (I'm working in construction right now), and it's reassuring to makes money, you stress less about the future.
The other thing is to go out alone in nature, with no distractions.
I will make a thread about it tomorrow if I'm not too busy.

It's a short reply but if you have questions about different trades or the outdoors, feel free to ask.

 

[AutistSupremacist]

Only a girlfriend, love, romance and the like can mend you.

 

[RottingMentalIago]

In fact, i'm worried some users i've argued with will use my failures against me, they should just unironically end their lives tbh.

Other users should end their lives because you’re depressed. Okay, woman.

Maybe if you didn’t spend your time humblebragging about your “high iq” and your racially superior genetics, and then claiming you’re abused by anyone who challenges you and that your “abusers” should kill themselves to make you happy like a fucking woman people on here wouldn’t laugh at you.

 

[SupremeFroggy]

No one here wants to discuss the blackpill, share personal stories, or discuss anything at all interesting.

Whenever I make such a thread I get no replies or moved to the sewers or even temp banned, so ig you're right.

Anyway, do whatever you think is the best for you. Good luck brocel.

 

[ExistentialPariah]

Good luck man, wish you the best!

 

[DarkStar]

Other users should end their lives because you’re depressed. Okay, woman.

Maybe if you didn’t spend your time humblebragging about your “high iq” and your racially superior genetics, and then claiming you’re abused by anyone who challenges you and that your “abusers” should kill themselves to make you happy like a fucking woman people on here wouldn’t laugh at you.

I was just venting because people here use ad homs all because of views

You are a genuine piece of shit and a paki LARP, using my lowest moments against me when i’m already low

Fuck off

 

[RottingMentalIago]

I was just venting because people here use ad homs all because of views

You are a genuine piece of shit and a paki LARP, using my lowest moments against me when i’m already low

Fuck off

You spend your whole time humble bragging about your intelligence and your ethnically superior genetics.

You abuse other users.


You tell other users to kill themseves.


When people call you out on your behaviour you cry about how you are a victim of abuse.

Why should people care about your feelings when you spend your whole time harassing other people and demanding the suicides of anyone who disagrees with you.

Are you a foid pretending to be an ugly man? You certainly seem like some borderline personality disorder foid don’t you?


Be the change you want to see, Debbie.

 

[Old Ironsides]

No one here wants to discuss the blackpill, share personal stories, or discuss anything at all interesting. I hate how we embrace "brainrot" or just let it consume us, since maybe, just maybe, if we tried to keep ourselves active via discussing shit we would feel better.

I especially disdain how this happens as well.
There's a whole subforum for brainrot, which albeit is fun to participate in sometimes, we have forums where the NEED for sharing backstories IS there. However, whenever you post them, they seem unnoticed or responded to with "muh water"

Anyways man, I wish you the best of luck and blessings with your cybersec course and hope you can rebuild your life.

 

[DarkStar]

I especially disdain how this happens as well.
There's a whole subforum for brainrot, which albeit is fun to participate in sometimes, we have forums where the NEED for sharing backstories IS there. However, whenever you post them, they seem unnoticed or responded to with "muh water"

Anyways man, I wish you the best of luck and blessings with your cybersec course and hope you can rebuild your life.

Thanks man

Ik we had diff on religion but thanks for your kindness

If i may ask, can you pray for me?

 

[Old Ironsides]

Thanks man

Ik we had diff on religion but thanks for your kindness

If i may ask, can you pray for me?

I will, mang.

 

[yung loner]

Things couldn't have happened any other way. There's always the future

 

[Sub5failure]

You spend your whole time humble bragging about your intelligence and your ethnically superior genetics.

You abuse other users.


You tell other users to kill themseves.


When people call you out on your behaviour you cry about how you are a victim of abuse.

Why should people care about your feelings when you spend your whole time harassing other people and demanding the suicides of anyone who disagrees with you.

Are you a foid pretending to be an ugly man? You certainly seem like some borderline personality disorder foid don’t you?


Be the change you want to see, Debbie.

 

[Enigmaz]

I wish I could change my life upside down.