Pikacel
Overlord
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A big problem I'm encountering aside from the primary issue of laziness is that I struggle to accept being seen as a weirdo.
When I try going for a jog I think about all the people who see a fat urkel trying to exercise and those who make comments
When I work (ok I almost never work) I think about how slow and awkward I am + the condescending looks of both competent people and those who actually take it seriously (think about migrant workers who actually provide for their families vs some lazy manchild who should be working a better job)
The few times I try to gymcel I think about how many people mog me and how I'm essentially the 20+ yo retard who's starting 5-10 years too late
Etc etc
However it's not really doing me any favours. Either I accept being seen as a loser or I give into self consciousness and never leave the house.
Also because of this socialising will always be cope as well. Since I'm a total loser there's no chance of me really finding any friends, people will just look down on me and take the piss out of me. I'm ugly as well and foids are usually judgemental so there is zero chance of ascending. It's just better to focus on solitary copes
Of course reputation is important but I'll never really have a reputation. It's impossible considering my distinguished past of constistent social failure, faux pas and squandering of my time
When I try going for a jog I think about all the people who see a fat urkel trying to exercise and those who make comments
When I work (ok I almost never work) I think about how slow and awkward I am + the condescending looks of both competent people and those who actually take it seriously (think about migrant workers who actually provide for their families vs some lazy manchild who should be working a better job)
The few times I try to gymcel I think about how many people mog me and how I'm essentially the 20+ yo retard who's starting 5-10 years too late
Etc etc
However it's not really doing me any favours. Either I accept being seen as a loser or I give into self consciousness and never leave the house.
Also because of this socialising will always be cope as well. Since I'm a total loser there's no chance of me really finding any friends, people will just look down on me and take the piss out of me. I'm ugly as well and foids are usually judgemental so there is zero chance of ascending. It's just better to focus on solitary copes
Of course reputation is important but I'll never really have a reputation. It's impossible considering my distinguished past of constistent social failure, faux pas and squandering of my time





