View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=H9gGG-XBQGU&list=PL8B05DA159A687F42&index=9&pp=iAQB8AUB&ra=m
^ above I posted this song from the video game called the house of the dead 4. Reason why is because I felt a strong connection towards it even though I never played it. I remember in mid 2021 I watched a full gameplay video of it and then I started listening to the music afterwards because I thought it was cool. I used to listen the soundtrack when I played Minecraft or roblox and shit.
Hell I’d even say Kate green was almost my Waifu. I don’t really think I had a Jill Valentine obsession back then.
But yeah back then I was a lot more alive man, like things felt a lot better than how they are now. Even though I was doing the same shit I am doing now my mind was a lot fresher and felt less polluted with age.
I just remember getting more dopamine out of stuff, I was 18/19 at the time and now am 23. So am wondering if aging and not changing much is having an effect. I mean it’s obvious I don’t even need to answer that
But yeah it wasn’t even bullshit on the internet that I feel Nostalgia towards it was real life stuff as well.
I used to screw around the train tracks and I used to hang out under this overpass that used to have a deserted homeless camp. Felt like I was in half life 2. I explored a lot following the train tracks, I actually went really far during Halloween.
But now? I just feel like it’s time to move on with my life and do something else with my time on earth. But I don’t know how to or even have the discipline to bring about the change.
Am still living in the same exact place as before and I still can’t drive or have any friends, Am also still a virgin and now unemployed just like in 2021 and most 2022 JFL
But am trying to remember my past right now and it’s difficult when you never wrote anything down lol.
