It's Over I might be a bipolarcel

[spud_tard]

Sometimes I'm completely depressed for nothing; with my chronic fatigue, which makes me closer to dreams than reality, struggling to open my eyes, having difficulty even walking, the craziest thing is that because I know that I can't be 100% cured, even though my fatigue is completely insupportable, I still try to do hobbies, and I have tips to do it with my disorganization. On the other hand, I know that when I take a stimulant like just a bit of Red Bull, which is enough to make me euphoric, I go completely ADHD—moving compulsively, telling shitty jokes, and talking all the time. I'm literally this gif when I'm euphoric:

 

[spud_tard]

I don't even know why I make this thread, people won't care about it

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

What are you fatigued from? Do you think it's in genetics that you feel this way?

 

[spud_tard]

What are you fatigued from? Do you think it's in genetics that you feel this way?

I think it's genetics; my grandma killed herself. I never met my grandma because of that, but I think she gave her disease to me, genetically speaking.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I don't even know why I make this thread, people won't care about it

A lot of us care. Don't worry, this isn't reddit.

 

[spud_tard]

A lot of us care. Don't worry, this isn't reddit.

The thing I hate the most with reddit is the upvote/downvote system, which hide and marginalize controversial messages

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I think it's genetics; my grandma killed herself. I never met my grandma because of that, but I think she gave her disease to me, genetically speaking.

Sorry to hear that. It's entirely possible certain chemicals in your brain are off because of genetics. Not everyone is the same because of this, which is why some people are naturally happier and some are naturally more angry, and some are naturally sad. Also being an incel definitely contributes to this without a doubt.

I don't know what to do. Maybe there's medications but there's no guarantee for it. At this point when it comes to my autism, misophonia, and anxiety, I've accepted that no one will ever understand who I am. Sadly I think this could be the case for you , so don't shame yourself for being a way that you can't change.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

The thing I hate the most with reddit is the upvote/downvote system, which hide and marginalize controversial messages

I fucking despised that too. You just say one thing that slightly disagrees with everyone and they suppress your post with downvotes to publicly shame you.

 

[spud_tard]

Sorry to hear that. It's entirely possible certain chemicals in your brain are off because of genetics. Not everyone is the same because of this, which is why some people are naturally happier and some are naturally more angry, and some are naturally sad. Also being an incel definitely contributes to this without a doubt.

I don't know what to do. Maybe there's medications but there's no guarantee for it. At this point when it comes to my autism, misophonia, and anxiety, I've accepted that no one will ever understand who I am. Sadly I think this could be the case for you , so don't shame yourself for being a way that you can't change.

I have medications that help a lot but they're not magic; I still have this fatigue, especially when I'm outside (if I didn't have these meds, I would probably lurk on this forum without the capacity to reply to you)

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I have medications that help a lot but they're not magic; I still have this fatigue, especially when I'm outside (if I didn't have these meds, I would probably lurk on this forum without the capacity to reply to you)

It seems like my medications barely help too. People make medications seem like it'll solve everything when it only puts a bandaid on the issue.