- Feb 21, 2020
- 59d 10h 20m
Even destitute African children or whatever cliche bullshit archetype you wanna use have it better than me. At least those people have some sense of community. I have literally no one . Not a single friend, acquaintance, extended family member like a cousin or something...live with 2 inept boomers who neglected and shit on me my entire life yet were simultaneously overbearing helicopter maniacs. KHHV at 23 in another month, haven't spoken to anyone my age in more than 2 years. Failed at all attempts in life at socializing (including those online where I just end up getting ghosted). Even cashiers look at me in wonted disgust and treat me like shit. EVERYONE!!!!! I've reached the bottom of the abyss and I'm ready to be taken. If some intruder burst into my room and blew my head off with a shotgun I'd thoroughly enjoy that. All copes have run their course several times over. I would not expect anyone who hasn't been at this level of mental torture I've endured for more than a decade to understand; nor would I fault them for mocking these words. I'm sparing numerous other details that also make my case. I really have nothing left to contribute. I don't wanna read another sentence, or have to mask in public, or have to think ever again. I want my brain to melt inside-out and collapse as if this entire lifetime was nothing but a glitch.