
Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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Sometimes I'll get the desire to initiate a conversation with a foid, but the moment I see one I'd like to approach, it feels impossible, like my body won't listen to me. It's like I don't have a clue what to say, as if everybody else got the manual for how to talk to people irl but me. I wonder if she'll be disgusted by me, I feel like it's pointless since she'll think I'm ugly and I don't want to get rejected again.
It's not that I first consider the idea but then decide against it, no, it seriously feels like my body won't respond to me. When talking to people irl I'm already pretty reserved, but with attractive foids I can barely manage more than a sentence, and can never initiate conversations. I imagine myself walking up to her, greeting her, smiling at her, but I don't do it, I never do it. To put it in perspective, I know I can suppress my instinctive fear enough to hold lit matches to my skin, but I can't initiate conversations. I've tried nofap and alcohol, neither helped, nofap actually made me even more tense than I already was before.
I've been thinking about getting a job, and just the dread of inquiring about whether or not a place is hiring has been on my mind for awhile.
I wouldn't be surprised if I have the highest inhib on the forum.
It's not that I first consider the idea but then decide against it, no, it seriously feels like my body won't respond to me. When talking to people irl I'm already pretty reserved, but with attractive foids I can barely manage more than a sentence, and can never initiate conversations. I imagine myself walking up to her, greeting her, smiling at her, but I don't do it, I never do it. To put it in perspective, I know I can suppress my instinctive fear enough to hold lit matches to my skin, but I can't initiate conversations. I've tried nofap and alcohol, neither helped, nofap actually made me even more tense than I already was before.
I've been thinking about getting a job, and just the dread of inquiring about whether or not a place is hiring has been on my mind for awhile.
I wouldn't be surprised if I have the highest inhib on the forum.