Runt171
Trapped in a pre determined hell
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Here is a song you can listen to while you read this Someone made a post about aphex twin A few weeks ago and it reminded me of it
I think it fits in well with this its probably one of my favourite songs
I was listening to it while writing this so I thought I would put it here
View: https://youtu.be/q86g1aop6a8?si=d5tKKOsz6yzYlw7L
I accept now that I am a truecel there is
no coping around it
I have pretty much nothing going for me
I get mogged by most people in everything daily
Its such a fucking brutal way to live
Im low Iq and uneducated
physically weak and unhealthy
My face is fucked up and I have several mental problems like adhd ptsd and anxiety (not surprising that I have the last two at all given my shit genes)
I genuinely never stood a chance In life
Its crazy to think about that and Im sure youve all had similar thoughts too
All the struggles and pain Ive gone through in life were for fucking nothing
All the dreams and hopes I had were only a delusion they were there to keep me going
they were never really possible
literally nothing worthwhile will come from this shit existence
Even the few good things I have now will slowly fade away until I have nothing left to exist for
And I say exist because I Cant say I ever lived at all
I will just rot away while Everyone else gets to live their good lives because they got lucky
What was the point of me even being born into this fucking rigged and evil world??
Just to be a puppet used by the world to make other people laugh and feel good about themselves
is that really it
Im always thinking about this shit Ive made a couple other posts pretty much saying the same thing because I cant get it out of my head
Im one of the smallest men Ive seen in my life This is what I would say makes me a truecel
Even with all of my other flaws I would say this is the thing that has ruined me
This is what Has caused most of the hardship in my life
the abuse and bullying and all the disrespect I have faced for years and couldnt do anything about
Thats why I named myself Runt since it has been one of the main defining traits of my how my life turned out
Tiny hands and tiny feet (5.5/6) tiny wrists(5.8/6)and small skull
Narrow shoulders (I wear xs tshirts idk the actual width) small waist too like 27-28 inch
I have no muscle I have pretty much all the bad traits of an ectomorph with none of the good ones like height since I'm 5’6/5’7
Im 20 btw so Its not like im some 17 year old complaining who still has time to ascend somehow
My fate is fucking sealed
I think I might genuinely get frame mogged by fucking ER
Ive always hated my pathetic frame
I dont even give af as much about being ugly compared to my shit frame It completely ruined my life
If I could be an ugly big intimidating guy who still got no women I would be happy with that
atleast I could feel like a man then instead of a fucking subhuman
I feel like I was given the worst traits of each gender with none of the good ones
Ill give a couple examples of what I mean because I cant think of anymore off the top of my head
I was given The frail pathetic weak body of a woman without the social power of her gender and cunt that allows her to thrive in life
And put into a world where subchad men are hated and treated like second class citizens and cannon fodder
but I dont have the physical strength or power like a normal man does
So I am just thrown Into this hostile world with no means of defence
My whole existence has just felt grey and dead There never really was any life being lived
If you listened to the song at the beginning I would say If I could put my life into a song that would be it
Long depressing and boring
I feel like when I realised how bad my genes were any hope for colour to come into my life faded away and now I am just trapped in this void forever wishing to escape
Any of you who still have a chance at anything in life should be happy to get anything at all
I know you might not be slaying but Atleast you can enjoy some things in life
I guess I can too But its all not as enjoyable when you get mogged every second
Even when Im watching films or playing games Im reminded of how even fucking women sizemog me let alone fucking men
I just imagine what I would look like next to these people and its fucking brutal
I genuinely wouldn't even look human
I wish I could box or fight but My frame is too fucking pathetic
Ive always wanted the confidence that comes with knowing you can fight but I would never get this even if I trained because of my frame
I wish I could create beautiful art but I don't have natural talent at it and I dont want to take years just to get to the point that someone with talent starts at
The brutal thing is I have a few people in my family who are naturally talented and make really good art but im fucking terrible and have given up on it now because it just makes me angry every time I try to draw anything
I wish at the very least I could have had something as unimportant of a skill as being good at gaming just so I could enjoy that more as a cope but I dont even fucking get that
Im shit at nearly every game I play Whenever I play with my friends They are always near the top of the leader board while I am always at the bottem
That’s pretty much my life summed up
Nearly everything in my life has been ruined by my genes I really fucking hate the state my life has ended up in
Shit even this post is fucking terrible With my shit iq I cant write anything interesting or anything that anyone actually gives af about
This wont be a post that anyone thinks about or cares about after reading
If you even read up to this point you will forget about it in around a few hours at the most
I just wish I could have something In life to keep me going
Some sort of talent or hobby that im actually good at and can cope with
Something that would make it worth me ever existing at all
I always wanted to be someone important or special
but my genes have failed me at everything in life
nothing can pay the price to fix the hole that my terrible genes have left
Im just going to continue neetmaxx/ldaring since being able to do this is one of the few privileges I got in life
If I was forced to work on top of all of this I would have genuinely fucking lost it by now
If you read this far I appreciate it and you are a real nigga
I hope the best for you hopefully you wish me the same If not fuck you
I think it fits in well with this its probably one of my favourite songs
I was listening to it while writing this so I thought I would put it here
View: https://youtu.be/q86g1aop6a8?si=d5tKKOsz6yzYlw7L
I accept now that I am a truecel there is
no coping around it
I have pretty much nothing going for me
I get mogged by most people in everything daily
Its such a fucking brutal way to live
Im low Iq and uneducated
physically weak and unhealthy
My face is fucked up and I have several mental problems like adhd ptsd and anxiety (not surprising that I have the last two at all given my shit genes)
I genuinely never stood a chance In life
Its crazy to think about that and Im sure youve all had similar thoughts too
All the struggles and pain Ive gone through in life were for fucking nothing
All the dreams and hopes I had were only a delusion they were there to keep me going
they were never really possible
literally nothing worthwhile will come from this shit existence
Even the few good things I have now will slowly fade away until I have nothing left to exist for
And I say exist because I Cant say I ever lived at all
I will just rot away while Everyone else gets to live their good lives because they got lucky
What was the point of me even being born into this fucking rigged and evil world??
Just to be a puppet used by the world to make other people laugh and feel good about themselves
is that really it
Im always thinking about this shit Ive made a couple other posts pretty much saying the same thing because I cant get it out of my head
Im one of the smallest men Ive seen in my life This is what I would say makes me a truecel
Even with all of my other flaws I would say this is the thing that has ruined me
This is what Has caused most of the hardship in my life
the abuse and bullying and all the disrespect I have faced for years and couldnt do anything about
Thats why I named myself Runt since it has been one of the main defining traits of my how my life turned out
Tiny hands and tiny feet (5.5/6) tiny wrists(5.8/6)and small skull
Narrow shoulders (I wear xs tshirts idk the actual width) small waist too like 27-28 inch
I have no muscle I have pretty much all the bad traits of an ectomorph with none of the good ones like height since I'm 5’6/5’7
Im 20 btw so Its not like im some 17 year old complaining who still has time to ascend somehow
My fate is fucking sealed
I think I might genuinely get frame mogged by fucking ER
Ive always hated my pathetic frame
I dont even give af as much about being ugly compared to my shit frame It completely ruined my life
If I could be an ugly big intimidating guy who still got no women I would be happy with that
atleast I could feel like a man then instead of a fucking subhuman
I feel like I was given the worst traits of each gender with none of the good ones
Ill give a couple examples of what I mean because I cant think of anymore off the top of my head
I was given The frail pathetic weak body of a woman without the social power of her gender and cunt that allows her to thrive in life
And put into a world where subchad men are hated and treated like second class citizens and cannon fodder
but I dont have the physical strength or power like a normal man does
So I am just thrown Into this hostile world with no means of defence
My whole existence has just felt grey and dead There never really was any life being lived
If you listened to the song at the beginning I would say If I could put my life into a song that would be it
Long depressing and boring
I feel like when I realised how bad my genes were any hope for colour to come into my life faded away and now I am just trapped in this void forever wishing to escape
Any of you who still have a chance at anything in life should be happy to get anything at all
I know you might not be slaying but Atleast you can enjoy some things in life
I guess I can too But its all not as enjoyable when you get mogged every second
Even when Im watching films or playing games Im reminded of how even fucking women sizemog me let alone fucking men
I just imagine what I would look like next to these people and its fucking brutal
I genuinely wouldn't even look human
I wish I could box or fight but My frame is too fucking pathetic
Ive always wanted the confidence that comes with knowing you can fight but I would never get this even if I trained because of my frame
I wish I could create beautiful art but I don't have natural talent at it and I dont want to take years just to get to the point that someone with talent starts at
The brutal thing is I have a few people in my family who are naturally talented and make really good art but im fucking terrible and have given up on it now because it just makes me angry every time I try to draw anything
I wish at the very least I could have had something as unimportant of a skill as being good at gaming just so I could enjoy that more as a cope but I dont even fucking get that
Im shit at nearly every game I play Whenever I play with my friends They are always near the top of the leader board while I am always at the bottem
That’s pretty much my life summed up
Nearly everything in my life has been ruined by my genes I really fucking hate the state my life has ended up in
Shit even this post is fucking terrible With my shit iq I cant write anything interesting or anything that anyone actually gives af about
This wont be a post that anyone thinks about or cares about after reading
If you even read up to this point you will forget about it in around a few hours at the most
I just wish I could have something In life to keep me going
Some sort of talent or hobby that im actually good at and can cope with
Something that would make it worth me ever existing at all
I always wanted to be someone important or special
but my genes have failed me at everything in life
nothing can pay the price to fix the hole that my terrible genes have left
Im just going to continue neetmaxx/ldaring since being able to do this is one of the few privileges I got in life
If I was forced to work on top of all of this I would have genuinely fucking lost it by now
If you read this far I appreciate it and you are a real nigga
I hope the best for you hopefully you wish me the same If not fuck you
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