I know I’m not alone but I just need to check this rq

[Eternatus]

I’m really suffering over here with my head. I envy non affectionate cels, I see most of you getting on here spamming some bs about not having sex and going on with your day. It’s been 3hrs since I came home from wageslaving and all I did was sitting on a chair and laying down on the floor. I’m paralyzed, I’ve reached a stage where I cannot be functional any longer without the promise of being loved.

I WANNA BE FUCKING HELD I WANNA HAVE HER FUCKING ARMS TIGHT AROUND MY SHOULDERS. I want to be chosen and depart from this world, forget the Blackpill, be the guy that all the sudden gets it right, have that text that says “I’ve actually been missing you, turns out I was in love with you but I wasn’t ready, you’ve been too hard on yourself and I wanna make up for that.” I deserve something like this happening to me, Ive only flames behind my eyes, all I feel is a constant stream of pain.

I need to bond with somebody I’m in love with, I believe in meaning, in purpose, chances, being meant to be, it cannot only be an occurrence to stumble upon me, I need somebody that feels the same.

 

[nihilum]

I will never have a girlfriend. It’s over.

 

[tired as fuck]

brutal no reply pill, but I don't even know what to say. Darkrai pfp but you're named Eternatus is all I can conjure up.

love doesn't exist in this realm unfortunately.

 

[nihilum]

It’s over for nogirlfriendcels.

 

[xxdarkpixelsxx]

I've somehow turned my desire for affection into rage towards normies + chads

 

[Halfpassedover]

You get used to it. Instead of a loving text from a cute gf waiting at home for me, I have 0 messages while I sit at work trying to pass as normal enough for NPCs who are too biased and retarded to treat me right. Fuck em . I'm glad I'm leaving this dumbass job soon. Just another group of lame faggots that can have each other.

 

[Eternatus]

I've somehow turned my desire for affection into rage towards normies + chads

You will never get rid of your desire for affection, it is indispensable for survival.

 

[Eternatus]

You get used to it. Instead of a loving text from a cute gf waiting at home for me, I have 0 messages while I sit at work trying to pass as normal enough for NPCs who are too biased and retarded to treat me right. Fuck em . I'm glad I'm leaving this dumbass job soon. Just another group of lame faggots that can have each other.

I fear not. I don’t like talkative women, I dream of one that spends time with me and caresses my shoulders with kindness in her heart, while I provide for her the world. That’s how life is supposed to be, if it was safe to be a simp and be loved back always, I would skip meals to buy her rings. But I got a retard job instead and I will never be seen as a provider, I’m a miserable ugly motherfucker, really good for nothing. I only have my feelings.

 

[AutismKing]

I’m really suffering over here with my head. I envy non affectionate cels, I see most of you getting on here spamming some bs about not having sex and going on with your day.

You are down bad bro.
But seriously:
You seem like very affectionate and clingy in terms of women, and I don't mean it in a bad way. I think I am like that in a way as well, I would like to have a true bond with the girl.
Your posts really scratch that itch of melancholic longing for the girl you feel you will never have. I feel a lot like you as well, so I can relate.
There's a kind of melancholy in that. I don't have much to say that could really help you, it depends on your situation and if you think you still have a chance. But your posts are just brutal to read.
I've made some threads in a similar theme to yours, probably inspired by your earlier posts in a way:

I need sad autistic gf

I am here once again after a short break, as the loneliness consumes me again. I thought I would forget all of you, but I have come back to this hell again to post sad stuff. There is nowhere else to go, and my life stays the same. Writing here, in the dark corner of the internet, is all I have...

incels.is

All I ever wanted is to be loved

As I sit here writing this I know I won't be able to sleep tonight. My life is an unbearable loneliness and never ending suffering ever since the day I was born. I just wish I had someone here with me right now. I wish she would hold my hand, cuddle with me and tell me how much she loves me, how...

incels.is

Teen love is all

Teen love is all... really. Lack of teen pussy in your youth ruins your brain irreparably. Teen love, being hugged by your oneitis, being kissed, seeing the sunset with her, watching a movie while cuddling and then sleeping warmly with each other... all of those things are necessary for good...

incels.is

 

[AutismKing]

I WANNA BE FUCKING HELD I WANNA HAVE HER FUCKING ARMS TIGHT AROUND MY SHOULDERS. I want to be chosen and depart from this world, forget the Blackpill, be the guy that all the sudden gets it right, have that text that says “I’ve actually been missing you, turns out I was in love with you but I wasn’t ready, you’ve been too hard on yourself and I wanna make up for that.”

I need to bond with somebody I’m in love with, I believe in meaning, in purpose, chances, being meant to be, it cannot only be an occurrence to stumble upon me, I need somebody that feels the same.

Chad only mate...
Brutal, I know, but it's all I can say