I was always a happy and sweet child. I dreamed about being a father and raising my own child with my wife. I had a great childhood even though my dad wasn't in it. I was friendly to everything and everyone. Always cared for animals like my cats and other ones. When I reached puberty it all changed. First day of middle school came around and I was really nervous. I always had problems with socializing and was really quiet. Luckily I made some "school friends". Middle school was alright. Highschool is where everything began. I was 14 and started being interested in girls. Well I wish I wasn't. Oh yeah and all my middle school friends were gone. I had a crush on the typical school whore and I don't know why when I think about it. Well I went to a party of my childhood friend and she was there. I was really nervous and didn't talk to her. But got her number through that friend. We started talking a bit and she asked if I liked her. I stupidly said yes and when I asked her if she liked me back, she said "sorry, you're not my type". Being rejected by the school whore hurt. I started wondering why I haven't had a girlfriend yet while all the other guys have. Well 10th grade rolls around and my fuckass class was filled with wannabe gangsters, so of course the quiet kid gets picked on by those niggers. There were 4 girls in that class and 20 boys. The girls of course wanted to be included because they're fucking devils. I had a bit of self esteem and confidence but that died there too. I hated going to school, stopped taking care of myself and was addicted to my playstation (my only cope). I had hope though things would change when I graduated highschool. Spoiler, it never did. I was depressed but wasn't aware yet of my Sub5 face. Well every other guy had their first kiss, we're alot of couples, people were passing through each other while I remained alone, never a single sign a girl liked me. Well fast forward to graduation. Was happy I was finally free from that place. Then Gigachad became a massive meme and kickstarted looksmaxxing. I already had a bit of resentment for women after high school but gave it the benefit of the doubt and thought it was because they were "young". Then looksmaxxing became more and more popular and then the pills came. When this happened I was already struggling with self image, depression and social anxiety. I heard of incels and that kind of stuff but never really deepend in it. I wondered why girls never chose me but chose the bad guys. My fingers are tired so I'm gonna stop here. Conclusion is i finally realized the truth behind women's nature. I don't understand what I've done to deserve this miserable fucking life and face. I got alot more to say but it would take to long. So thank you for reading.
