I just want to feel SOMETHING. I have been emotionally dead for a month now

[glowIntheDark]

I used to be pretty active here during my initial month of joining and life was going decent as well. I had made some friends in uni /was studying and doing my assignments -- still a loser but was doing fine where I don't know from where this feeling hit me from nowhere.

It's hard to explain but it's like this huge demon wrapped itself around me and has sucked away all feelings (happiness/sadness/frustration/anger) It came out of nowhere too.

It's been three weeks like this brocels, I have missed university for three weeks/I just wake up late in bed-- rage scroll through ragebait on the net whole day in my bed-- eat ONE meal a day (I counted for the last three weeks I have averaged 1000 calories a day ).Sleep repeat.

Talked to no one /ignored all the calls from my friends and I can't get out .

I know it's a bit pathetic to ask this on a public forum but I desperately need help. It's like the longer I let this metaphorical demon stay on my back the more life energy it is sucking out of me. And I can't get it off

I AM SCARED SHITLESS. I NEED SOME ADVICE.

PS - DON'T SAY GO TO A THERAPIST/PSYCHIATRIST MY RETARD DAD WOULD NEVER ALLOW ME TO DO THAT ON HIS DIME

 

[TheSwagapino]

pursue an art. i vent all my feelings into my music and its a nice release

 

[Mortis]

pursue an art. i vent all my feelings into my music and its a nice release

Do you play an instrument?

 

[glowIntheDark]

Also haven't showered in a week. Haven't bathed for three weeks. Matter hair. I prolly reek. Hardly sleep more than four hours. But I FEEL NOTHING.
NO DISGUST. NO SHAME.NO ANGER . NO HAPPINESS NOTHING.

I am seeking out rage bait on internet JUST to feel something

 

[glowIntheDark]

Kys freak people like you give incels a bad name

Dafaq? What did I do?

 

[glowIntheDark]

pursue an art. i vent all my feelings into my music and its a nice release

I guess but I have no hobbies really. Can't draw for shit. Gravelly weak voice so can't sing. Can't dance cuz awkward small body

 

[Schirococo]

pursue an art. i vent all my feelings into my music and its a nice release

Seconded

 

[TheSwagapino]

Do you play an instrument?

right now no i just use fl studio. im learning keyboard and bass guitar

 

[Mortis]

right now no i just use fl studio. im learning keyboard and bass guitar

Very based

 

[Ghostface]

if you want to feel angry, what gives me easy ragefuel is seeing @Man's pfp and tagline

 

[Ghostface]

ehh, it used to say No Bitches?

 

[LeFrenchCel]

That's a giga truecel trait ngl

 

[glowIntheDark]

if you want to feel angry, what gives me easy ragefuel is seeing @Man's pfp and tagline

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