I just walked out of a cousins wedding

[Darth_Homosexualis]

I wish I did with my last cousin that got married. I didn't have the nerve and dark triad mindset then.

He's a good guy but a manlet with an ugly face. His wife is like his looksmatch. everyone knows she cheated on him numerous times and openly uses him for his wageslave money.

He's one of those people pleaser types that seems to enjoy her constant bullshit and being controlled. Maybe he's happy but man it breaks my heart every time I see with that cunt.

Yeah there is so much of that sort of relational or interpersonal assymmetry at these kinds of family events that it just serves to reinforce in my mind the imperative for completely rejecting and repudiating every facet of normie society and culture. Also, I have sat through many prior weddings from start to finish all while making a tremendous effort to conceal my contempt and outrage at the whole farcical nature of the celebration. Marriage is glorified prostitution and the ceremony which confirms this licentious contract is as hypocritical as it is scandalizing.

 

[BarrelStuffer]

Missed opportunity to try and ascend. Foids get jealous at events like this. You could have gotten one of them Beckies

 

[Darth_Homosexualis]

Missed opportunity to try and ascend. Foids get jealous at events like this. You could have gotten one of them Beckies

I know that's a viable theory but it only makes sense in the abstract and depends on several variables which have to be calibrated in a particular way so that the situation is conducive to exploitation. Too many single men were in attendance at this wedding and I'm certain that Becky would have been discerning enough or pretentious enough to favored one of them over me, even assuming she was heavily intoxicated. I come across as completely socially inept but physically large and intimidating enough so that most foids are terrified by me. I think their foid intuition tells them that I secretly aspire to become a serial killer who targets as many of them as I can.

 

[based_meme]

Your experience is highly relatable. I used to get anxious like this, where I just wanted to GTFOT. It feels like you're cornered and the walls are caving in on you.

Did you ever hear the Tragedy of Darth Aurelius, The Stressed?

 

[Blackpillcrusader5]

Agreed. The physical design of the public infrastructure is meant to be maximally complimentary to the social proclivities of your typical normie, hence large public spaces, round tables with chairs, benches placed adjacent to one another, etc. I do think that the internet serves some role as well but mental disease and disorder has increased so exponentially in the US and the West more generally that there have to be other, unforeseen contributory factors. I think the rise of video game culture is a major consideration as is the sort of lingering, vestigial social isolation that was introduced by the pandemic.

Well said. I was walking around a park yesterday and I saw a whole bunch of normies chilling and I thought to myself "wow I literally do not know how to make friends/socialize." I gave up drinking for 2.5 years when I was in AA which meant no social life. So now I feel very isolated and dont see the point of interaction.

 

[Darth_Homosexualis]

Your experience is highly relatable. I used to get anxious like this, where I just wanted to GTFOT. It feels like you're cornered and the walls are caving in on you.

You have described the subjective experience I have at such events with an uncanny precision and as such, I'm guessing you've been through this a few times yourself. Is there anything you've done to mitigate the psychologically and physiologically debilitating aspects of having to be around so many people? I have to serve as my Chad brother's best many in two months and I have been dreading what I anticipate is going to be a thoroughly humiliating and excruciatingly painful experience for the last six months when he initially asked me to "stand up for him". I'm thinking of maybe getting some cocaine or popping a Quaalude or two before the event so that I don't appear to be a socially retarded autist.

 

[Darth_Homosexualis]

Well said. I was walking around a park yesterday and I saw a whole bunch of normies chilling and I thought to myself "wow I literally do not know how to make friends/socialize." I gave up drinking for 2.5 years when I was in AA which meant no social life. So now I feel very isolated and dont see the point of interaction.

Yeah exactly. I just can't make small talk as I seem to be constitutionally incapable of understanding the sorts of natural conversational rhythms that normies appear to either intuitively know or otherwise readily assimilate whenever they engage with one another. For me however, I have noticed that in certain, limited social venues, I can at least maintain the pretense of normalcy, partly because I think I've just vicariously acquired certain interpersonal skills through my interactions with people throughout my life and then am able to apply them in narrow contexts. At weddings, funerals, graduations, family events, etc. however, I am entirely inept at initiating social contact and struggle terribly to maintain forward momentum and constructive conversational engagement.

 

[based_meme]

You have described the subjective experience I have at such events with an uncanny precision and as such, I'm guessing you've been through this a few times yourself. Is there anything you've done to mitigate the psychologically and physiologically debilitating aspects of having to be around so many people? I have to serve as my Chad brother's best many in two months and I have been dreading what I anticipate is going to be a thoroughly humiliating and excruciatingly painful experience for the last six months when he initially asked me to "stand up for him". I'm thinking of maybe getting some cocaine or popping a Quaalude or two before the event so that I don't appear to be a socially retarded autist.

I went through, not what was supposed to be a pleasant social family event, but something in a dangerous place that I thought was going to be the end of my life. The feeling of anxiety is the same, but the trigger and intensity is different.

The feeling comes from a place of helplessness and lack of control. To mitigate the feeling in my case I did something drastic that gave me back control of the situation. I don't know what the analogue would be in a family wedding situation.

 

[Logic55]

Here's a tip: never ever attend a wedding again, it is cucked to attend wedding because you will be seeing a couple about to begin a long happy life that is filled with romance, love, and heavenly sex. These are things you are denied by society.