I'm gonna be honest with you, not gonna yell at you or anything, but you really shouldn't be here. You're gonna fuck yourself up in the head. Based on your stats you unironically still have hope. Come back here if you rope and reincarnate into a 5'2" balding Indian janitor
In all seriousness, you're gonna get dragged down into a worse mental state cause you are with us miserable people. And unfortunately for us, we aren't blessed with your stats, and we can't really do much. But for you, it would be certainly a
waste if you just throw away your numbers like that. Go to .org or some shit, faggot site but it might help you.