CrippledByLonelines
There is No Justice in History
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My mental health took a massive dip this evening when I tried to think about what my future would look like. Honestly I think even if I don't rope it is over for me.
I have seen currycels in this forum who have jobs, are pursuing education from institutes curries would kill for and are generally career moggers.
I failed University entrance test for third time in a row and needless to say any career prospect I envisioned are dead. I could get over failing in studymaxxing but the thing I didn't fail. I just didn't try imo. If I had the discipline and self control of a Chad I would have easily aced the exam with minimum preparation, but since I am an complete waste of genes I spend nearly three fucking years rotting in my house doing useless shit on internet and accomplishing absolutely fucking nothing. The fact that I willingly ruined my chances at wealth is soul crushing and more potent suifuel than I anything I have seen here.
I got friends who were also currycels in HS pursuing Engineering and Research degrees from Presitigious Universities, travelling and having fun with their new college mates and generally living life in the manner man is supposed too. My parents never did anything wrong to me and they are completely blameless for my situation. Everything that happened to me is completely my fault. I am buttfuck ugly, physically weak, unsuccessful in education and probably career in the future too, I have zero friends and social life. I literally have nothing relevent going on for me. No matter how hard I tried to rectify myself and build some discipline it failed. I am unable to accomplish anything.
My mental state has hit an absolute rock bottom buddy boyos. I never thought about roping but for some reason offing myself seems like an easy option. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future. I am intimidated and my mind is scatter brained. I wish I had the self control to properly gymmaxx and studymaxx but I can't even do those lmao. I wonder how Gymcels and Studymaxxers manage to get shit done with shit mental health. Would appreciate it if some told me although knowing me I would probably rather play video games and read Fantasy novels than actually do something useful.
I have seen currycels in this forum who have jobs, are pursuing education from institutes curries would kill for and are generally career moggers.
I failed University entrance test for third time in a row and needless to say any career prospect I envisioned are dead. I could get over failing in studymaxxing but the thing I didn't fail. I just didn't try imo. If I had the discipline and self control of a Chad I would have easily aced the exam with minimum preparation, but since I am an complete waste of genes I spend nearly three fucking years rotting in my house doing useless shit on internet and accomplishing absolutely fucking nothing. The fact that I willingly ruined my chances at wealth is soul crushing and more potent suifuel than I anything I have seen here.
I got friends who were also currycels in HS pursuing Engineering and Research degrees from Presitigious Universities, travelling and having fun with their new college mates and generally living life in the manner man is supposed too. My parents never did anything wrong to me and they are completely blameless for my situation. Everything that happened to me is completely my fault. I am buttfuck ugly, physically weak, unsuccessful in education and probably career in the future too, I have zero friends and social life. I literally have nothing relevent going on for me. No matter how hard I tried to rectify myself and build some discipline it failed. I am unable to accomplish anything.
My mental state has hit an absolute rock bottom buddy boyos. I never thought about roping but for some reason offing myself seems like an easy option. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future. I am intimidated and my mind is scatter brained. I wish I had the self control to properly gymmaxx and studymaxx but I can't even do those lmao. I wonder how Gymcels and Studymaxxers manage to get shit done with shit mental health. Would appreciate it if some told me although knowing me I would probably rather play video games and read Fantasy novels than actually do something useful.