
wereq
The End of Happiness Is The Beginning of Truth
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- Sep 11, 2022
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I can't tolerate the painful stagnation and worthlessness of this wizard truecel NEET life anymore. I failed at everything and suck at everything. I don't have what it takes to achieve anything on my own and it has driven me into despair and ruin. Everyday I have to tell myself lies that I'll finally get there one day in the near future, just so that I don't lose my mind and collapse on the floor.
The only way I can keep myself going is by lying to myself that staying patient is worth it, when clearly in my heart I know that its not. There's nothing better coming for me down the line; things only stand to get worse as I age and head towards my doom, but I can't just quit life yet either without achieving something on my own because if I died without getting anything done, my final moments will be filled with unbearable regret and agony. I want to die in peace, not agony.
The only way I can keep myself going is by lying to myself that staying patient is worth it, when clearly in my heart I know that its not. There's nothing better coming for me down the line; things only stand to get worse as I age and head towards my doom, but I can't just quit life yet either without achieving something on my own because if I died without getting anything done, my final moments will be filled with unbearable regret and agony. I want to die in peace, not agony.