it's like somewhere deep in my mind I've already accepted I won't only get rejected but humiliated by my classmates for it. I miss that feeling so much tho, falling so desperately in love with a girl I'd see her in my dreams, dedicate entire pages in notebooks to drawing her and writing gay shit about being with her, listening to music that reminded me of her, all that gay crap. Like I still found some foids attractive to a certain degree but, it's just not the same it's always riddled with so much insecurity and depression, that feeling that click, I miss that shit man.
