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Draconian Times
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I would feel guilty about abandoning this hellhole as an involuntary celibate. I have to earn my way out of this forum. It lives inside me, even when I do not post for over a month.
It is akin to a shaft in some way. I look up and see the light, become aware of the direction I should take, and start working my way up, but I stumble in every attempt.
How dishonest it would be for me to jump off the ship when I am swimming towards the same destination. I cannot help myself, however. If I thought of quitting, my heart did not buy it. I read stories about people that made it and they motivate me to try at the very least.
I wake up and go to sleep with the same objective in mind. I crave the transformation. I no longer want to lead a miserable life. Some people get their kicks stomping on my dream, but that is not enough to deter me from following it. Pray for me in case you are religious. I am not going to be sexless and lonely forever.
It is akin to a shaft in some way. I look up and see the light, become aware of the direction I should take, and start working my way up, but I stumble in every attempt.
How dishonest it would be for me to jump off the ship when I am swimming towards the same destination. I cannot help myself, however. If I thought of quitting, my heart did not buy it. I read stories about people that made it and they motivate me to try at the very least.
I wake up and go to sleep with the same objective in mind. I crave the transformation. I no longer want to lead a miserable life. Some people get their kicks stomping on my dream, but that is not enough to deter me from following it. Pray for me in case you are religious. I am not going to be sexless and lonely forever.