Venting I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing with now

[Zeref]

I've no fucking idea the fuck I'm doing with my life, everyday I go to sleep wishing I don't wake up the next day. I do nothing everyday except doomscrolling, I neither have the willpower nor the necessary chemical reactions in my brain to initiate an action to study. I wish I could study but it's too late now.
I feel like a complete retard rn, I've damaged my brain beyond repair. Becoming nihilistic and blackpilled at a young age is the worst thing that can happen to a man if he doesn't have the courage to rope. Instead of reducing my suffering I'm just amplifying it.
I wish I could be delusional religious normie again, I can't see myself doing delivery jobs because I failed to study, I'm just not meant for that heck I'm not even meant for this world, I just spawned here and I hate it.
Fuck man, why did it have to be me.

 

[retributor]

chillax and drink freshly killed squirrel blood with raw steppe horse milk

 

[Truecel Prophet]

existence is a life sentence for some.

 

[Zeref]

existence is a life sentence for some.

A life sentence you got for a fake rape allegation

 

[fivefiveethnmanlet]

I've no fucking idea the fuck I'm doing with my life, everyday I go to sleep wishing I don't wake up the next day. I do nothing everyday except doomscrolling, I neither have the willpower nor the necessary chemical reactions in my brain to initiate an action to study. I wish I could study but it's too late now.
I feel like a complete retard rn, I've damaged my brain beyond repair. Becoming nihilistic and blackpilled at a young age is the worst thing that can happen to a man if he doesn't have the courage to rope. Instead of reducing my suffering I'm just amplifying it.
I wish I could be delusional religious normie again, I can't see myself doing delivery jobs because I failed to study, I'm just not meant for that heck I'm not even meant for this world, I just spawned here and I hate it.
Fuck man, why did it have to be me.

I feel you deeply man your not alone, im 18 and 5 5 subhuman growth plates are closed, the loneliness and rejection is a killer. Worst of all i got shitty ethnic parents which are abusive asf. Religion is a good cope but it has its limits. Chad doesnt experience any of the hardships we do yet he is promised heaven. If in the slightest chance God exists hes truly a bitch for making us this way, no man deserves a life of eternal loneliness and suffering because of things he cant even fucking change. Being KHHV is hell on earth

 

[Zeref]

I feel you deeply man your not alone, im 18 and 5 5 subhuman growth plates are closed, the loneliness and rejection is a killer. Worst of all i got shitty ethnic parents which are abusive asf. Religion is a good cope but it has its limits. Chad doesnt experience any of the hardships we do yet he is promised heaven. If in the slightest chance God exists hes truly a bitch for making us this way, no man deserves a life of eternal loneliness and suffering because of things he cant even fucking change. Being KHHV is hell on earth

What kind of ethnic?

 

[Truecel Prophet]

A life sentence you got for a fake rape allegation

nigga what?

 

[fivefiveethnmanlet]

What kind of ethnic?

Jeet