Pretty much every single day I either get drunk or high and have since I turned 21 and shortly after got put on disability for being a diagnosed schizo. I’m 26 now. I think I do this to cope with my inceldom and horrible environment with my alcoholic mother. The loneliness and boredom is too much to bear sober. I have no hobbies and no interests really due to my depression and negative symptoms of the schizo bullshit. I waste time listening to music and watching random dumb YouTube videos, but I wouldn’t call those hobbies or interests.
The only thing I’m truly interested in is this fantasy where I get sober and quit porn and start gym maxxing and get a job and learn to drive and get my own place and then I start finding a way to approach foids in real life. Basically the ultimate turn around from being a 26 year old virgin who can’t even function like a normal human being.
I know I’ll never get to experience teen love or possibly even 20s love, but I might as well go all out trying to escape inceldom in this 1 and only life before I kill myself. I bought some legit rope the other day because I’d most likely be denied a gun license even in America with my hospitalizations being on suicide watch and in the psych ward. I looked it up cause I thought about just lying about it, but you could get legit time in prison for that apparently ha.
It’s crazy you can buy these vapes at a liquor store nearby that say they have Amanita Muscaria mushroom extract in them, but who knows what it really even is in it haha. All I know and care about is that it gets me high. I also took 3 Kratom capsules. I’m like a shaman on a trip I’m so fucked up. This is all legal shit somehow I live in a state where weed isn’t even legal. I have no car and no drug connections really.
Some people here seem to think drugs and alcohol are for normies, but I think more than anything they’re for low status males. Normies might drink and do drugs socially on the weekends or something around other people, but they don’t need to do it everyday alone like a junkie cause they get natural healthy sources of dopamine from having good lives and careers and relationships and shit.
The only thing I’m truly interested in is this fantasy where I get sober and quit porn and start gym maxxing and get a job and learn to drive and get my own place and then I start finding a way to approach foids in real life. Basically the ultimate turn around from being a 26 year old virgin who can’t even function like a normal human being.
I know I’ll never get to experience teen love or possibly even 20s love, but I might as well go all out trying to escape inceldom in this 1 and only life before I kill myself. I bought some legit rope the other day because I’d most likely be denied a gun license even in America with my hospitalizations being on suicide watch and in the psych ward. I looked it up cause I thought about just lying about it, but you could get legit time in prison for that apparently ha.
It’s crazy you can buy these vapes at a liquor store nearby that say they have Amanita Muscaria mushroom extract in them, but who knows what it really even is in it haha. All I know and care about is that it gets me high. I also took 3 Kratom capsules. I’m like a shaman on a trip I’m so fucked up. This is all legal shit somehow I live in a state where weed isn’t even legal. I have no car and no drug connections really.
Some people here seem to think drugs and alcohol are for normies, but I think more than anything they’re for low status males. Normies might drink and do drugs socially on the weekends or something around other people, but they don’t need to do it everyday alone like a junkie cause they get natural healthy sources of dopamine from having good lives and careers and relationships and shit.
