Deleted member 17724
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Like all users here, I make fun of and insult cucks. But I'm in fact addicted to amateur cuckold porn myself. I feel disgusted by myself for it but ever since I got into it like a year ago, there's nothing that brings me the same kind of arousal. I can literally cum hands-free from watching it. I suppose the fact that it fills me with disgust and shame afterwards is what creates the arousal since I have designated it as 'taboo' in my mind.
If I wasn't incel, I would not have ended up as the broken person that I am right now. I wish I could have sex with a real-life person but instead I'm stuck fapping to disgusting pornography like this and rotting my brain with it. Even if I ever end up in a relationship or married, the loss of innocence that I have experienced as a result of my loneliness will forever haunt me and may have even permanently harmed my mental health/brain functions in some way.
I used to absolutely despise porn and only fap to my imagination. It wasn't until my oneitis brutally rejected me that I started using it as a form of escapism and delved deeper and deeper into the degeneracy until I got where I am currently. I have tried many times to quit and I am still trying as of now but it seems like as long as I'm all alone and cannot statisfy my urges with a real woman of flesh and blood, I am doomed to continue this cycle of shame and self-hatred. I wish I just had my own place and my own income so I could escortcel, I don't want to do this any longer.
I know you guys might end up joking about this but I'm serious and really needed to get this off my chest because I obviously cannot talk about this with anyone in real life.
If I wasn't incel, I would not have ended up as the broken person that I am right now. I wish I could have sex with a real-life person but instead I'm stuck fapping to disgusting pornography like this and rotting my brain with it. Even if I ever end up in a relationship or married, the loss of innocence that I have experienced as a result of my loneliness will forever haunt me and may have even permanently harmed my mental health/brain functions in some way.
I used to absolutely despise porn and only fap to my imagination. It wasn't until my oneitis brutally rejected me that I started using it as a form of escapism and delved deeper and deeper into the degeneracy until I got where I am currently. I have tried many times to quit and I am still trying as of now but it seems like as long as I'm all alone and cannot statisfy my urges with a real woman of flesh and blood, I am doomed to continue this cycle of shame and self-hatred. I wish I just had my own place and my own income so I could escortcel, I don't want to do this any longer.
I know you guys might end up joking about this but I'm serious and really needed to get this off my chest because I obviously cannot talk about this with anyone in real life.