I fucking despise foids. I fucking despise everything about the female race, and the only thing that intensifies this shit I feel is the fact that I was designed to breed with them. And that I can't fucking spend 24 fucking hours without thinking about having sex with one. And yet, I am unable to. I feel like a thirsty man separated by a thick glass wall, unbreakable by my mere hands. On that other side is a sea of water, filled with scabs and STDs. Yet, it's the best I can get.
But all my life, it's just never been that way. I've been denied a relationship, I've never had one, never been aided in having one. And it won't be all if I didn't feel certainly fucking despised by the same species I'm supposed to be attracted to. Imagine needing something that actively fucking hates you. How is somebody supposed to live like this? I'm starved for fucking anything, never felt the touch of a woman, never felt a kiss, a hug, or nothing. But fuck me right?
Fuck me for being this way. Fuck me for not being chad. A normalfag would read this and be like "haha lmao look at this weirdo that's starving for women, what a loser incel." But they don't know what it's like. Usually I'd agree with them, I try not to care about women, I take my incelibacy as a curse I just have to live with but what makes it SO FUCKING HARD ARE THOSE FUCKING BIOLOGICAL URGES! WHY?
I have to lie down here in this basement, I don't even deserve a place this good. And I have to listen to this 6'4 chad (I'm sure) fuck the shit out of this bitch 24 fucking 7 while I study here like the loser that I am. I have no qualificiations in life or nothing. I feel like God is mocking me and I deserve it. I'm just a piece of shit stuck here. The added sex is just the cherry on top. My Dad wants to call me but fuck him, why didn't he help me deal with this? Why is it that fucking 24 years down the line now he wants to act like he gives a shit? Bless my Mom she tries, but she doesn't understand.
I can't be a fag either. It's a pipeline that dwells in my thoughts but that shit is all kinds of fucked up for real. I'm not even homophobic or anything because I don't have time to hate them. I actually pity them and after suffering like this for so long I get it. I get why people can be so desperate for attention they crave the touch of anything, even if it's another man. But nah, that lifestyle just ends in misery. Fuck that shit.
I want to apologize to God, but it doesn't feel genuine enough. I'm sorry for being a genetic mess, I'm sorry I couldn't do it. Sorry for being such a fucking degenerate. But I don't want it anymore, I don't want to be attracted to women, nor men. I don't like this shit, I hate it. I just want to be left alone of those urges and accomplish something else in my life. Please.
But all my life, it's just never been that way. I've been denied a relationship, I've never had one, never been aided in having one. And it won't be all if I didn't feel certainly fucking despised by the same species I'm supposed to be attracted to. Imagine needing something that actively fucking hates you. How is somebody supposed to live like this? I'm starved for fucking anything, never felt the touch of a woman, never felt a kiss, a hug, or nothing. But fuck me right?
Fuck me for being this way. Fuck me for not being chad. A normalfag would read this and be like "haha lmao look at this weirdo that's starving for women, what a loser incel." But they don't know what it's like. Usually I'd agree with them, I try not to care about women, I take my incelibacy as a curse I just have to live with but what makes it SO FUCKING HARD ARE THOSE FUCKING BIOLOGICAL URGES! WHY?I have to lie down here in this basement, I don't even deserve a place this good. And I have to listen to this 6'4 chad (I'm sure) fuck the shit out of this bitch 24 fucking 7 while I study here like the loser that I am. I have no qualificiations in life or nothing. I feel like God is mocking me and I deserve it. I'm just a piece of shit stuck here. The added sex is just the cherry on top. My Dad wants to call me but fuck him, why didn't he help me deal with this? Why is it that fucking 24 years down the line now he wants to act like he gives a shit? Bless my Mom she tries, but she doesn't understand.
I can't be a fag either. It's a pipeline that dwells in my thoughts but that shit is all kinds of fucked up for real. I'm not even homophobic or anything because I don't have time to hate them. I actually pity them and after suffering like this for so long I get it. I get why people can be so desperate for attention they crave the touch of anything, even if it's another man. But nah, that lifestyle just ends in misery. Fuck that shit.
I want to apologize to God, but it doesn't feel genuine enough. I'm sorry for being a genetic mess, I'm sorry I couldn't do it. Sorry for being such a fucking degenerate. But I don't want it anymore, I don't want to be attracted to women, nor men. I don't like this shit, I hate it. I just want to be left alone of those urges and accomplish something else in my life. Please.
