i always feel so empty when i’m eating and honestly i wish i didn’t have to eat at all. I’ve noticed myself gaining weight in my face and in my stomach and it has seriously been bothering me. now, i put a lot of thought into what i eat and when, and if i do slip up and eat more than what i want, i just get depressed and tell myself that it will be different next time, and then it happens again. it’s this huge cycle of “dont eat” “eat” “why the fuck did you just do that” and it resets every time. my self esteem is already so low, so why the hell do i always have to be so worried about eating? its over. 
