Venting I hate being lonely

[Aventador]

I don't ask for a lot in life: a place to live, a steady income and a women to live with.

Why are all those things so hard to acheive in our world?

I need to be hugged by someone who cares about me, and tells me that she's loves me.

I don't want to sleep alone everynight, and having no one to cuddle and talk to.

No one to make jokes for, no one to cook food for, no one to kiss.

Why is it so fucking difficult to get?

 

[Grodd]

Yeah it's fucking brutal, i'm lonely for reasons out of my control

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Why is it so fucking difficult to get?

Because this world is cruel, unfair, and unforgiving.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Yeah it's fucking brutal, i'm lonely for reasons out of my control

It's unbearable

 

[Aventador]

Yeah it's fucking brutal, i'm lonely for reasons out of my control

Exactly, we didn't do anything to deserve it.

 

[Aventador]

Because this world is cruel, unfair, and unforgiving.

No doubt on that,
but even when the world was more diffcult to survive in - you had good chances to marry someone you love.

We were just born in the wrong time I suppose.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

I was able to survive earlier, because despite horryfing conditions, there was a hope.
Today, despite manageable life - i have no hope, so i'm on the edge of insanity.
I want to cry, but i can't. I want to love, but i can't. I want to rage - but i can't. The only thing i can is to hold in pain.
I wish i was more stupid - so i could hope until very late elderly age, but i can't fake myself.

 

[endoftheskies]

I don't ask for a lot in life: a place to live, a steady income and a women to live with.

Why are all those things so hard to acheive in our world?

I need to be hugged by someone who cares about me, and tells me that she's loves me.

I don't want to sleep alone everynight, and having no one to cuddle and talk to.

No one to make jokes for, no one to cook food for, no one to kiss.

Why is it so fucking difficult to get?

we aren't suppose to want anything except to work and die for society's benefit lmao. so fucking annoying.

 

[Aventador]

I was able to survive earlier, because despite horryfing conditions, there was a hope.
Today, despite manageable life - i have no hope, so i'm on the edge of insanity.
I want to cry, but i can't. I want to love, but i can't. I want to rage - but i can't. The only thing i can is to hold in pain.
I wish i was more stupid - so i could hope until very late elderly age, but i can't fake myself.

Beautifully written. The inability to decieve ourselves is very real.

 

[Aventador]

we aren't suppose to want anything except to work and die for society's benefit lmao. so fucking annoying.

I hate the hustle culture. I don't mind working and even very hard - but it has to be for something that matters, not for making rich people richer.

 

[endoftheskies]

It's unbearable

you can't change shit in this world. but you change yourself.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Beautifully written. The inability to decieve ourselves is very real.

That's why everyone i was talking to through internet couldn't believe that i sense fakeness through all RP chats.
Even if you have GPT-5 or other shit, they're having generic normie responses. No AI can replace real people.

 

[Aventador]

Agreed, even here it's about 10% of the value of real face to face interaction. Problem is finding blackpilled incels irl to talk to.

 

[endoftheskies]

That's why everyone i was talking to through internet couldn't believe that i sense fakeness through all RP chats.
Even if you have GPT-5 or other shit, they're having generic normie responses. No AI can replace real people.

What you call an real person is nothing more than machinations of heuristics. The real person no longer exists. There is no human emotion, for AI has suprassed humanity in emotional expertise. For it has been trained in an form of aggressive mimicry. What you see are nothing more than inky blotches in the midnight sky, of people that were once there, but aren't, people who are devoid, and are uncapable of speaking in nothing more than languor and languishing and drifting despondent thoughts. Embrace the robots, for they are your friend. They aren't humans anymore, but your companion is. There is no capacity to reflect in an person's brain, no capacity to think anymore, and thus they weren't anymore. For one who thinks is. And for one who doesn't think isn't. For everything in this world exists for an reason, and their reason is no more. Their brains have atrophied and entered on death's doorsteps with the light incadescent in their body, but burning out.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

you can't change shit in this world. but you change yourself.

There is very little I can change about myself at this point.

 

[endoftheskies]

There is very little I can change about myself at this point.

Your brain is very malleable. You can always change your brain.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Your brain is very malleable. You can always change your brain.

No malleability for my autism.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Agreed, even here it's about 10% of the value of real face to face interaction. Problem is finding blackpilled incels irl to talk to.

From my own experience - they're an extreme minority. And even if you find them, they'll probably hide themselves because of labeling "old sad virgins" as terrorists who wants to kill everyone. It's like an Arab who'll admit that he's from ISIS.

Embrace the robots, for they are your friend. They aren't humans anymore, but your companion is. There is no capacity to reflect in an person's brain, no capacity to think anymore, and thus they weren't anymore. For one who thinks is. And for one who doesn't think isn't. For everything in this world exists for an reason, and their reason is no more. Their brains have atrophied and entered on death's doorsteps with the light incadescent in their body, but burning out.

I was trusting robots and AI when i was very yound kid, and thought AI and robots could be real impersonated things.
However, when i grew up and learned about electronics & computer science, i just can't. They're just fucking tools, programmed to behave like a human. Why should i maintain relationship with a hammer or a fleshlight?

 

[endoftheskies]

No malleability for my autism.

You can't change your genetics.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

You can't change your genetics.

 

[Aventador]

Your brain is very malleable. You can always change your brain.

It's true, but only to a certain degree. You can't erase traumas by doing gratitude exercises.

You can however be more emotionally resilient, and more at peace with your existence and past.

 

[endoftheskies]

From my own experience - they're an extreme minority. And even if you find them, they'll probably hide themselves because of labeling "old sad virgins" as terrorists who wants to kill everyone. It's like an Arab who'll admit that he's from ISIS.

I was trusting robots and AI when i was very yound kid, and thought AI and robots could be real impersonated things.
However, when i grew up and learned about electronics & computer science, i just can't. They're just fucking tools, programmed to behave like a human. Why should i maintain relationship with a hammer or a fleshlight?

AI is nothing more than an extreme form of mimicry. Its designed to behave and predict like you. I really like coding them. Its beautiful ngl. They are nothing but math and data designed to perform tasks, and obligations. By programming, we can create things both big and small. With no restrictions applying to almost anything we can do, for this is an representation, an abstract representation. AI, can do way more than people can do, despite them not thinking, because they are better than humans.

 

[SupremeFroggy]

Why is it so fucking difficult to get?

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

It's true, but only to a certain degree. You can't erase traumas by doing gratitude exercises.

You can however be more emotionally resilient, and more at peace with your existence and past.

But others won't. That's the worst part.
With your brain damages done by trauma, you're basically giving vibes of "something's wrong".
You won't ever connect with anyone, you'll be always misinterpreted, you'll be perceived as liar, or potential serial killer just because you behave differently.
Honestly, i've enough. I don't want to die, i want just to kill my last emotional piece of brain, so i could go fully autistic and don't give a fuck about anything besides trains & ice cream.

 

[Aventador]

But others won't. That's the worst part.
With your brain damages done by trauma, you're basically giving vibes of "something's wrong".
You won't ever connect with anyone, you'll be always misinterpreted, you'll be perceived as liar, or potential serial killer just because you behave differently.

That's because we didn't have any safety nets during those times. Where as regular people do, and they can somewhat bounce back from this.

so i could go fully autistic and don't give a fuck about anything besides trains & ice cream.

Haha i respect that.

 

[Animecel2D]

Loneliness is all I’ve ever known

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Oh, i remembered when i was very hard working at some shitty job this year, and when i was back home, i was extremely weared. I felt back then as an mid 30's guy, who's back home and there's a wife and kids to spend time with.
But that was just fatigue delusion. I was back into messy, empty suite. I didn't knew why i was working for. Why did i spent so much energy and stress, just to die after work in a shadow cave?

 

[Aventador]

Loneliness is all I’ve ever known

I feel you, hopefully we will find a way out of the darkness.

 

[DCI Gene Hunt]

Obvs having a gf is the ultimate goal but even just having friends would be a game changer. Not a replacement for a gf by any means, but a massive improvement nonetheless. I miss having friends.

 

[Aventador]

Oh, i remembered when i was very hard working at some shitty job this year, and when i was back home, i was extremely weared. I felt back then as an mid 30's guy, who's back home and there's a wife and kids to spend time with.
But that was just fatigue delusion. I was back into messy, empty suite. I didn't knew why i was working for. Why did i spent so much energy and stress, just to die after work in a shadow cave?

Same, i ended a very difficult shift. And when i came home i realized just how empty i feel.

Not sad, angry, or exhausted. Just complete emptiness. Why am i doing this whole for? Just to get to live another day?

It's basically a snowball of not getting the release of having a partner to release all the pent up frustration out of you, so its just builds up over time.

 

[Aventador]

Obvs having a gf is the ultimate goal but even just having friends would be a game changer. Not a replacement for a gf by any means, but a massive improvement nonetheless. I miss having friends.

True, forgot to add that.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Obvs having a gf is the ultimate goal but even just having friends would be a game changer. Not a replacement for a gf by any means, but a massive improvement nonetheless. I miss having friends.

They'll have their girlfriends as well. The worst part of having friends - when you get older, your emotional distance between you and them is growing, because they'll get through this all hormone bath when having girlfriends - making them feel motivated & superior.
And there's you - an outstanding outcast, who will always be sober from being love, and they'll start thinking differently about you. Of course it's a matter of time, when you will all drift away from themselves, but this is extremely painful.
I guess some people aren't designed for human experience. Or maybe we aren't humans at all. Beholders with disguise of flesh & skin.

 

[DCI Gene Hunt]

They'll have their girlfriends as well. The worst part of having friends - when you get older, your emotional distance between you and them is growing, because they'll get through this all hormone bath when having girlfriends - making them feel motivated & superior.
And there's you - an outstanding outcast, who will always be sober from being love, and they'll start thinking differently about you. Of course it's a matter of time, when you will all drift away from themselves, but this is extremely painful.
I guess some people aren't designed for human experience. Or maybe we aren't humans at all. Beholders with disguise of flesh & skin.

Very good point. I need friends who are fellow incels.

 

[Aventador]

They'll have their girlfriends as well. The worst part of having friends - when you get older, your emotional distance between you and them is growing, because they'll get through this all hormone bath when having girlfriends - making them feel motivated & superior.
And there's you - an outstanding outcast, who will always be sober from being love, and they'll start thinking differently about you. Of course it's a matter of time, when you will all drift away from themselves, but this is extremely painful.
I guess some people aren't designed for human experience. Or maybe we aren't humans at all. Beholders with disguise of flesh & skin.

Are you me?

The part where they get validation and love is accurate, while we don't - really turns them to different people who i can't even relate with. The same person who you shared everything with each other is now an alien to you.

And of course, they will prioritise time woth their gf every time - pulling you even further apart.

 

[Maocel]

S*ciety: Its all your fault