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This event actually happened on Tuesday. I just had another appointment for driving simulation. As usually I just went inside to do my driving simulation. But as soon as I opened the door, a dog from inside of the driving school approached me. It seems like the dog belongs to the the staff. I also recognized the dog. Back when I had driving theory lessons, there was also a dog similar to him but much smaller.
The staff at driving school are two females, one of them is even younger than me. I tried to be social, so I tried to start a conversation about this. Since only the younger female was around, I just asked her if this is the dog I knew from the theory lessons back then. She agreed and then I proceed to ask her if this dog belongs to her. She replied with a ''yes... and my boyfriend''. Why? Why was she doing this? I did not asked about her, I had a question regarding to this dog. The memes are literally reality.
Also do not get me wrong here. I talk to her in a polite form. I never tried anything here and yet I got such a phrase as a response? I also would not dare to try to do anything here. I remember that one time she even laughed at me. I was just struggling in driving simulation at some point and I could hear her laughing at that exact moment through my headphones.
This shit is emasculating enough. I am literally the only one doing driving simulation and I am even struggling with this. I have now 8 driving simulation lessons behind me and yet I cannot really get behind of it. I also had a double lesson as my first lesson for real driving where the teacher told me that I have no foundation whatsoever. On the second driving lesson I had, he told me to do driving simulation first.
I am just struggling to get behind of it. I am struggling to stick to the road properly, since I am leaning to much to the right side of it. I am also struggling to adjust the speed in regards to the road signs. I am also struggling to adjust my speed regarding to the general traffic and I am struggling to change the gear to it. So, in the end I am just struggling in general.
And if I am honest here, I am also somewhat anxious about driving itself, I am anxious about crashing the car. Imagine being 25 years old and being anxious about something like this. I know for plenty of you, this all sounds once again ridicilous and like a bad meme, but I can tell, it is not. To be honest, I wish this is all nothing bad a bad meme but I am just telling you how it is.
While I was doing driving simulation, females way younger than me had appointments for real driving lessons. It is really infuriating, knowing that females can drive without any effort at all while I am struggling with driving simulation.
I also have no fun since I am bad and because I am bad I have no fun with it. It is a vicious circle. It just feels forced and I am just acting at this point, trying to catch up. But I am also realistic. I am now 25 years old and I have basically nothing. No car, no driver licence, struggling with driving itself, no apprenticeship, a gap in my personal data sheet, still living with my parents, no real social circle, no female.
What is even the point in living such life if I cannot even drive? It also feels like that you actually cannot really ''learn how to drive'', since in the end, it is just driving and this is why it is even more infuriating. In order to create a better basis of understanding, it is like a toddler making its first steps. You do not learn it, you just do it. It is just thing and nobody talks about it, same with driving.
I feel like I am a toddler myself, unable to make my first steps, my first steps into adulthood.
Also @rightfulcel @Barnacle @Damo the incel and @unsettling
The staff at driving school are two females, one of them is even younger than me. I tried to be social, so I tried to start a conversation about this. Since only the younger female was around, I just asked her if this is the dog I knew from the theory lessons back then. She agreed and then I proceed to ask her if this dog belongs to her. She replied with a ''yes... and my boyfriend''. Why? Why was she doing this? I did not asked about her, I had a question regarding to this dog. The memes are literally reality.
Also do not get me wrong here. I talk to her in a polite form. I never tried anything here and yet I got such a phrase as a response? I also would not dare to try to do anything here. I remember that one time she even laughed at me. I was just struggling in driving simulation at some point and I could hear her laughing at that exact moment through my headphones.
This shit is emasculating enough. I am literally the only one doing driving simulation and I am even struggling with this. I have now 8 driving simulation lessons behind me and yet I cannot really get behind of it. I also had a double lesson as my first lesson for real driving where the teacher told me that I have no foundation whatsoever. On the second driving lesson I had, he told me to do driving simulation first.
I am just struggling to get behind of it. I am struggling to stick to the road properly, since I am leaning to much to the right side of it. I am also struggling to adjust the speed in regards to the road signs. I am also struggling to adjust my speed regarding to the general traffic and I am struggling to change the gear to it. So, in the end I am just struggling in general.
And if I am honest here, I am also somewhat anxious about driving itself, I am anxious about crashing the car. Imagine being 25 years old and being anxious about something like this. I know for plenty of you, this all sounds once again ridicilous and like a bad meme, but I can tell, it is not. To be honest, I wish this is all nothing bad a bad meme but I am just telling you how it is.
While I was doing driving simulation, females way younger than me had appointments for real driving lessons. It is really infuriating, knowing that females can drive without any effort at all while I am struggling with driving simulation.
I also have no fun since I am bad and because I am bad I have no fun with it. It is a vicious circle. It just feels forced and I am just acting at this point, trying to catch up. But I am also realistic. I am now 25 years old and I have basically nothing. No car, no driver licence, struggling with driving itself, no apprenticeship, a gap in my personal data sheet, still living with my parents, no real social circle, no female.
What is even the point in living such life if I cannot even drive? It also feels like that you actually cannot really ''learn how to drive'', since in the end, it is just driving and this is why it is even more infuriating. In order to create a better basis of understanding, it is like a toddler making its first steps. You do not learn it, you just do it. It is just thing and nobody talks about it, same with driving.
I feel like I am a toddler myself, unable to make my first steps, my first steps into adulthood.
Also @rightfulcel @Barnacle @Damo the incel and @unsettling
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