Venting I fully lost it last night

[Mahoneyblud07]

I snapped last night, I went full mental patient and now I just feel drained and disappointed.

Over the course of the past few weeks Ive been losing it and I dont know why, nothing in particular has made my spiral like this, no copes have been working (-substances) and all Ive been feeling is a constant stream of rage and sadness, maybe Im just at my wits end.

Last night I started getting really deep into my thoughts, questioning why I have to be the scum of the earth inkwell whilst everyone else my age is having fun in the sun with their loving girlfriends and families, I tried to sleep it off but this godforsaken heatwave wouldn't let me, its not like I could even cope with nicotine because I ran out of snus earlier, I was trapped in my own consciousness. After a few hours of my own brain torturing me, nicotine withdrawals and the heat literally raping me, I snapped, I started full force punching my wall whilst screaming my lungs out, I kept going till my fists were mangled and my voice was strained, only then I went to bed out of sheer mental and physical exhaustion.

Now my parents are treating me like a freak (dont blame them really) and Im disappointed in myself for going apeshit like that, it gets to a point man...

 

[She Does Not Exist]

I started full force punching my wall whilst screaming my lungs out

'You have to stop being so aggressive inkie! Women don't like that!'

 

[nihilum]

'You have to stop being so aggressive inkie! Women don't like that!'

 

[parbate2025]

I snapped last night, I went full mental patient and now I just feel drained and disappointed.

Over the course of the past few weeks Ive been losing it and I dont know why, nothing in particular has made my spiral like this, no copes have been working (-substances) and all Ive been feeling is a constant stream of rage and sadness, maybe Im just at my wits end.

Last night I started getting really deep into my thoughts, questioning why I have to be the scum of the earth inkwell whilst everyone else my age is having fun in the sun with their loving girlfriends and families, I tried to sleep it off but this godforsaken heatwave wouldn't let me, its not like I could even cope with nicotine because I ran out of snus earlier, I was trapped in my own consciousness. After a few hours of my own brain torturing me, nicotine withdrawals and the heat literally raping me, I snapped, I started full force punching my wall whilst screaming my lungs out, I kept going till my fists were mangled and my voice was strained, only then I went to bed out of sheer mental and physical exhaustion.

Now my parents are treating me like a freak (dont blame them really) and Im disappointed in myself for going apeshit like that, it gets to a point man...

Yeah i crash out like this every month but not at home but outside in remote place

 

[Mahoneyblud07]

Yeah i crash out like this every month but not at home but outside in remote place

Will be doing this more often

 

[ли/чж]

Insert Peter Griffin

 

[societysucks]

Mirin avi

 

[Mahoneyblud07]

Mirin avi

Mike Ma our goat

 

[Izayacel]

'You have to stop being so aggressive inkie! Women don't like that!'

 

[Izayacel]

Then they say you have anger issues or whatever the fuck . These fuckers only think in extremes , they only check it once you point a gun at their heads

 

[Izayacel]

can you neet atleast ?

 

[Mahoneyblud07]

they only check it once you point a gun at their heads

 

[Mahoneyblud07]

can you neet atleast ?

Nahh unfortunately, I think it would only make things worse anyways

 

[societysucks]

Mike Ma our goat

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

'You have to stop being so aggressive inkie! Women don't like that!'