Last night I couldn’t fall asleep for some reason. Then the idea of trying asmr popped into my head. so I went onto YouTube, paused my watch and search history so I wouldn’t forget to delete it later, and looked up “girlfriend asmr for sleep”. I looked through a bunch of videos and made a private playlist of a few that seemed good. I then put an AirPod in and played the playlist.
I rarely feel like more of a fucking loser than I did. I couldn’t stop thinking about how pathetic I looked and how my parents would react if they saw what I was doing. Then, I couldn’t stop thinking about how it was all fake; that there wasn’t a real girl laying next to me talking me to sleep, and instead it was some fat chick trying to get YouTube money.
I ended up still not being able to fall asleep so I just turned on my tv and put it to some random movie and ended up falling asleep like an hour later.
ASMR doesn’t work for everyone. If you are like me and still feel humiliated by your looks and still care about what others think it is not for you. It will only make you feel even more like a pathetic fucking loser and remind you that nobody cares about or likes you. It will also remind you that no female would ever want to spend time with you without you having to pay them.
I rarely feel like more of a fucking loser than I did. I couldn’t stop thinking about how pathetic I looked and how my parents would react if they saw what I was doing. Then, I couldn’t stop thinking about how it was all fake; that there wasn’t a real girl laying next to me talking me to sleep, and instead it was some fat chick trying to get YouTube money.
I ended up still not being able to fall asleep so I just turned on my tv and put it to some random movie and ended up falling asleep like an hour later.
ASMR doesn’t work for everyone. If you are like me and still feel humiliated by your looks and still care about what others think it is not for you. It will only make you feel even more like a pathetic fucking loser and remind you that nobody cares about or likes you. It will also remind you that no female would ever want to spend time with you without you having to pay them.
