SuicideFuel I feel sorry for myself

[Mohamedömar]

Today I had a college activity presentation.
I went to meet my mates to present this activity (one activity for every 10 people).

The whole hall was packed with groups, each presenting their own activity.

I'm the shortest among them, and I'm also the ugliest , and my body is also ugly skinny fat.
I felt like crying and breaking down, but I resisted, I am crying while writing this shit because I want suicide so bad but I can't do it because I am afraid of hell

But after I finish I felt like if I can't die I have to be unique
a unique guy, such as being a legend fighter like simo hayha or a legend leader or a celebrity, I felt like I want to be strong and unique

 

[lugubriouseanastar]

I'm the shortest among them, and I'm also the ugliest , and my body is also ugly skinny fat.
I felt like crying and breaking down, but I resisted, I am crying while writing this shit because I want suicide so bad but I can't do it because I am afraid of hell

You are living in hell. If there were a god, if there were a heaven, what kind of monster would he have to be to make you suffer like this? This is why I believe there’s no god, and if there were, he would be akin to Satan, not someone worthy of your worship.

 

[Mohamedömar]

You are living in hell. If there were a god, if there were a heaven, what kind of monster would he have to be to make you suffer like this? This is why I believe there’s no god, and if there were, he would be akin to Satan, not someone worthy of your worship.

Your point of view is relatively logical, but I can't take the risk.

 

[nachtlieder]

You are living in hell. If there were a god, if there were a heaven, what kind of monster would he have to be to make you suffer like this? This is why I believe there’s no god, and if there were, he would be akin to Satan, not someone worthy of your worship.

I don't know how one can believe in a such thing where there is no one purer than god while he is the most cruel.

 

[Mohamedömar]

I don't know how one can believe in a such thing where there is no one purer than god while he is the most cruel.

Nobody know what after death, It is still a risk

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

But after I finish I felt like if I can't die I have to be unique

survival instinct kicked in

 

[nachtlieder]

Nobody know what after death, It is still a risk

I see. I would be terribly upset if I died and woke up to some mythical mf banishing me to suffer more.

 

[Mohamedömar]

survival instinct kicked in

I don't know what to do, I am broken

 

[Mohamedömar]

I see. I would be terribly upset if I died and woke up to some mythical mf banishing me to suffer more.

So I called it a risk