It's Over I dream and then I wake up a walking corpse

[Misogynist Vegeta]

Lately I'm having these powerful dreams that constantly follow real world logic and it's just me actually living out my life like it's an alternate timeline. I'm always doing stuff and yes I am even finding myself in situations were I'm having sex. In these dreams I'm living without OCD pulling me back and without my looks pulling me back and it feels amazing, I'm hanging with friends that I never had playing games together locally, I'm playing sports with these friends and I have a successful career and I'm just a normal human living a normal human life.

And then I wake up sweating all over and reality sets in, It was just a dream. I have returned to my life of getting up going on internet all day on my computer and then going back to sleep, Even when I decide to go out I'm just a ghost not important to anybody else's life as they just completely ignore my existence outside of when I'm buying something from the grocery store and even then the acknowledge of my existence isn't because they interested in who I am but it's because it's just apart of their job.

I am unable to make friends because everybody else is so unlike me, They don't have experiences and they don't have the same interests and attitudes as me. It's like I'm trapped being punished for something that I may have done in a previous lifetime. A walking corpse just doing it's daily functions not really living like humans are suppose to.

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

Even when I decide to go out I'm just a ghost not important to anybody else's life as they just completely ignore my existence outside of when I'm buying something from the grocery store and even then the acknowledge of my existence isn't because they interested in who I am but it's because it's just apart of their job.

Same, no one ever acknowledged my existence, life without social validation is hell.

 

[nihilum]

Same, no one ever acknowledged my existence, life without social validation is hell.

 

[Dolls & Gor]

Lately I'm having these powerful dreams

Thoughts on why? Drugs, diet, exercise, sunlight, new job, school, family changes, ........

Cause I need me some of that dreaming!

 

[AutismKing]

Brutal man

And then I wake up sweating all over and reality sets in, It was just a dream. I have returned to my life of getting up going on internet all day on my computer and then going back to sleep, Even when I decide to go out I'm just a ghost not important to anybody else's life as they just completely ignore my existence outside of when I'm buying something from the grocery store and even then the acknowledge of my existence isn't because they interested in who I am but it's because it's just apart of their job.

Are you a NEET? If I had nothing to do all day I would probably lose my sanity. Studying at least distracts me from the pain; it keeps me moving.

I am unable to make friends because everybody else is so unlike me, They don't have experiences and they don't have the same interests and attitudes as me. It's like I'm trapped being punished for something that I may have done in a previous lifetime. A walking corpse just doing it's daily functions not really living like humans are suppose to.

Yeah, I get that. If you don't have normie interests then connection is pretty difficult.
I've tried faking it, but it burns me out quickly and just isn't convincing at all...