Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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For like 12 years now I've thought very often thought about how I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
But I actually don't want my existence to end. It's like I want to ... wake up and be elsewhere. I wake up and somebody tells me "hey you anon, you're finally awake. We've been watching over you and waiting for you for so long. Glad you're finally here with us, do you remember us? Quite the trip you've been on, you're home now." And I look around and it's basically heaven, and it's a trippy and wonderful existence where anything you want happens, and it's and epic and happy and great.
Of course, I'm an atheist so I'm sure when you're dead you're just worm food and your consciousness is kaput. So we need to make a comfy and nice life for ourselves boys, here and now cause there's no other world or life. Though my anhedonic pos brain seems to not like anything, always anxious and unhappy.
But I actually don't want my existence to end. It's like I want to ... wake up and be elsewhere. I wake up and somebody tells me "hey you anon, you're finally awake. We've been watching over you and waiting for you for so long. Glad you're finally here with us, do you remember us? Quite the trip you've been on, you're home now." And I look around and it's basically heaven, and it's a trippy and wonderful existence where anything you want happens, and it's and epic and happy and great.
Of course, I'm an atheist so I'm sure when you're dead you're just worm food and your consciousness is kaput. So we need to make a comfy and nice life for ourselves boys, here and now cause there's no other world or life. Though my anhedonic pos brain seems to not like anything, always anxious and unhappy.