LifeFuel I deceive others every day of my existence

[Giracel]

Tagged lifefuel because I think it's genuinely funny how much I can get away with:

• Chat lightheartedly with class acquaintance about lectures stuff / upcoming quiz
• Call parents at night smiling and laughing about random things from day, dumb book I'm reading, etc.
• Appear generally collected and focused in all interactions despite being scatterbrained and barely sleeping (it's past 3 am here)

No doubt it will continue tomorrow after I get a grand total of at most 5 hours of sleep. The only person who knows the full truth about things is my brother. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really "deceiving" or if there are two separate entities inside me. I genuinely get concerned at times. But, barring the metaphysical, I would say I spend a lot of time here.

 

[Giracel]

I first learned of Deception Island when I read about the failed Shackleton expedition. Something very incel about that whole operation, though I can't quite place it.

 

[Giracel]

"I'm literally patrick bateman brocel, you have to trust me, I'm just too sigma"

 

[ihatelife2]

You are good at keeping up an act my brother in incelitude

 

[Giracel]

You are good at keeping up an act my brother in incelitude

The proper term is inceldom. But thank you. There are glitches in the façade for sure at times.

 

[Giracel]

Masking behavior is also somewhat instinctual for autists, unless you're the type that is a literal disabled retard (which I am not). So what I'm trying to say is that not acting like this might actually be harder overall.

 

[nirvana]

 

[Giracel]

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How I would look at people if I was not actively trying to be pleasant