Brocels, I will be direct to the piont. If is someone who will mock me about my suicidal thoughts it's ok, everyone has an opinion. I tried to speak to a foid and I had emotions for her, we had common interests and thoughts, we spoke through messages and through the phone, I thought that I could ascend with her and I would escape this suffering I live day by day, but she said that she has a boyfriend. I was shocked and perplexed after hearing this. I cried all night and I was ready to drink erbicide but I can't. I am depressed since 15 and I self harmed until my mom cought me, I was brought to a psychologist and a psychiatrist and nothing helped, I almost got locked at the mental hospital for this. It is not my first try to speak with a foid, I tried before but no one seemed interested in me. I fucking hate my life so much, my biological father left me sick and didn't cared me and even he allowed his mistress to mock me and my mon, my step dad was authoritarian and didn't loved me. I can't take this anymore but I'm afraid to rope! This life is a torment, I believe that assisted suicide must be legal in all countries to everyone to decide if they wanna live or not.
