It's Over I burst into tears randomly during the day

[Qozumaki]

It has gotten so bad that I did it even at food table with my mom today.

This is absolute hell, I was on a medication for some years but quit recently (2 months or so ago ), idk if I should jump back on them or not. While I still felt shit, I feel like it wasn’t this bad. I’m just bed rotting, can’t even cope with video games or whatever.

 

[4sez]

It has gotten so bad that I did it even at food table with my mom today.

This is absolute hell, I was on a mediciation for some years but quit recently (2 or more months I think now), idk if I should jump back on them or not. While I still felt shit, I feel like it wasn’t this bad. I’m just bed rotting, can’t even cope with video games or whatever.

It nevER began.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

It's a normal thing
Inceldom does that to you

 

[wereq]

Yeah I understand. I am very depressed too. I have no desire to do anything, my sleep cycle is fucked, and I don't eat on time.

 

[Qozumaki]

Yeah I understand. I am very depressed too. I have no desire to do anything, my sleep cycle is fucked, and I don't eat on time.

People who can cope are lucky.

Maybe my age also has something to do with my inability to cope any longer, as I’m in my 30s now. Anyone at this age or older who can cope?

 

[Br007alDickP!ll]

You'll need to turn your despair into rage, your rage into anger and let it focus you. Let it drive you to make money and at least buy everything you want or take up extreme hobbies. I do hardcore rock climbing. I want to summit K2 or die trying before I'm 40. I'd love to die on that mountain. Or summit it. Then die.

The anger fuels me bro. I have a really fucked up origin into the "blackpill" there was no such moniker for it when I became awake. I'm old too man, almost 36. Hang in there dude. Don't let the normie scum sex haver cunts win. Don't let them!

 

[Mr.Breb]

i do too, same as rage attacks

 

[fang]

you're supposed to skip meals actually

 

[Br007alDickP!ll]

People who can cope are lucky.

Maybe my age also has something to do with my inability to cope any longer, as I’m in my 30s now. Anyone at this age or older who can cope?

Yeah, 36. But it's extreme and will likely kill me. But it's a fucking hardcore rush bro. You gotta get into extreme activities/sports. Videogames, lirn, working out, MMA, whatever it will eventually wear out. But extreme sports won't. Or at least it hadn't for me and I'm in year 8 of hardcore, lethal rock climbing. I could die any slip. Any wrong hand placement and I'm cooked. It's a rush bro.

 

[wereq]

People who can cope are lucky.

Maybe my age also has something to do with my inability to cope any longer, as I’m in my 30s now. Anyone at this age or older who can cope?

In my 30s too. Coping has become impossible for me too. All copes are temporary and eventually you will be left with nothing but pain if you don't get the things that you need in life. If you haven't succeed in your 20s, then at 30 and beyond failure becomes a brand upon you, a gaping wound that cannot be healed, and it becomes a source of shame; living with oneself becomes unbearable.

 

[Qozumaki]

You'll need to turn your despair into rage, your rage into anger and let it focus you. Let it drive you to make money and at least buy everything you want or take up extreme hobbies. I do hardcore rock climbing. I want to summit K2 or die trying before I'm 40. I'd love to die on that mountain. Or summit it. Then die.

The anger fuels me bro. I have a really fucked up origin into the "blackpill" there was no such moniker for it when I became awake. I'm old too man, almost 36. Hang in there dude. Don't let the normie scum sex haver cunts win. Don't let them!

Idk man, props to you, I have almost no drive. Neither can I force myself to obtain new hobbies or whatever.

 

[Qozumaki]

In my 30s too. Coping has become impossible for me too. All copes are temporary and eventually you will be left with nothing but pain if you don't get the things that you need in life. If you haven't succeed in your 20s, then at 30 and beyond failure becomes a brand upon you, a gaping wound that cannot be healed, and it becomes a source of shame; living with oneself becomes unbearable.

Damn, so this is it then for us, the end of the road.

 

[AdExpress]

Damn, so this is it then for us, the end of the road.

69th post

 

[wereq]

Damn, so this is it then for us, the end of the road.

Yeah I feel like I've already come to the logical conclusion of my life. I've tried everything and failed at everything, and now there's nothing more to look forward to. To continue would mean needing to put up with a lot of pain with total lack of reward to balance it out and this is difficult for my mind to accept. It would mean living for the sake of living in a painful and undignified manner without being able to get anything out of it, and that's the prospect that hurts to imagine because merely existing like a zombie is not my thing.

 

[Codependency]

It's a normal thing
Inceldom does that to you

So much this.

Sorry brother.

I'm an old fucker so I've been pretty much cried out for years now and am full anhedonia numbness now or almost but I get you.

Believe me I do.

 

[Qozumaki]

Yeah I feel like I've already come to the logical conclusion of my life. I've tried everything and failed at everything, and now there's nothing more to look forward to. To continue would mean needing to put up with a lot of pain with total lack of reward to balance it out and this is difficult for my mind to accept. It would mean living for the sake of living in a painful and undignified manner without being able to get anything out of it, and that's the prospect that hurts to imagine because merely existing like a zombie is not my thing.

"To continue would mean needing to put up with a lot of pain with total lack of reward to balance it out and this is difficult for my mind to accept."

So true. This is the despair I’m facing too.

As for me, I don’t know if I can say I have tried everything. I LDAR my entire 20s, but it was because of social anxiety and depression. My social anxiety was so bad that my body went into flight or fight mode when even taking the buss, entering the mall, or school, basically anywhere with groups of people. So LDAR was the answer. I don’t know, I don’t know anything anymore, where or what went wrong etc

 

[over_department]

please don’t hop back on any meds man…

Coming from someone who has taken them (pretty unwillingly when I was younger) I promise you it’s all bullshit placebos

 

[Qozumaki]

So much this.

Sorry brother.

I'm an old fucker so I've been pretty much cried out for years now and am full anhedonia numbness now or almost but I get you.

Believe me I do.

I’m sorry for you too. We only wanted normal things that the vast majority of the society have, but it was too much. I hope we can find peace one day.

 

[Moggedbyeveryone]

Do you mind if I ask what kind of medications it was? It might have had some bad effects that you didn't realize when you were taking them. Either it was keeping you numb, and now you're back to normal, or there is a chemical change still happening, and your mood is worse than before. I wouldn't get back on them, just keep going. The pain will pass.

 

[Qozumaki]

Do you mind if I ask what kind of medications it was? It might have had some bad effects that you didn't realize when you were taking them. Either it was keeping you numb, and now you're back to normal, or there is a chemical change still happening, and your mood is worse than before. I wouldn't get back on them, just keep going. The pain will pass.

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Escitalopram. i was put on them when I stayed at some sort of "psych ward" (not exactly, but don’t know what else to call it) when I was very suicidal. This was some years ago. I decided to quit now because I have gained weight while on it (increased appetite, now I eat much less so there is definitely a correlation) and it would be impossible to go down while on them. As if it is going to change a thing if I lose weight jfl (I’m not obese or anything, just overweight, 95 kg and around 6 feet tall).

 

[Moggedbyeveryone]

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Escitalopram. i was put on them when I stayed at some sort of "psych ward" (not exactly, but don’t know what else to call it) when I was very suicidal. This was some years ago. I decided to quit now because I have gained weight while on it (increased appetite, now I eat much less so there is definitely a correlation) and it would be impossible to go down while on them. As if it is going to change a thing if I lose weight jfl (I’m not obese or anything, just overweight, 95 kg and around 6 feet tall).

So it was an SSRI, right? In that case it suppressed the depression, but that has a side effect of suppressing other emotions, like your libido. It was like a chemical castration, to keep you from committing suicide.

 

[Qozumaki]

So it was an SSRI, right? In that case it suppressed the depression, but that has a side effect of suppressing other emotions, like your libido. It was like a chemical castration, to keep you from committing suicide.

Yes, it’s an SSRI. I’m definitely more depressed now that I have quit.

 

[wereq]

"To continue would mean needing to put up with a lot of pain with total lack of reward to balance it out and this is difficult for my mind to accept."

So true. This is the despair I’m facing too.

As for me, I don’t know if I can say I have tried everything. I LDAR my entire 20s, but it was because of social anxiety and depression. My social anxiety was so bad that my body went into flight or fight mode when even taking the buss, entering the mall, or school, basically anywhere with groups of people. So LDAR was the answer. I don’t know, I don’t know anything anymore, where or what went wrong etc

The thing to note is that we are unfit for life that why we are suffering.

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Escitalopram. i was put on them when I stayed at some sort of "psych ward" (not exactly, but don’t know what else to call it) when I was very suicidal. This was some years ago. I decided to quit now because I have gained weight while on it (increased appetite, now I eat much less so there is definitely a correlation) and it would be impossible to go down while on them. As if it is going to change a thing if I lose weight jfl (I’m not obese or anything, just overweight, 95 kg and around 6 feet tall).

I take this too (escitalopram). 20 mg every day.

Yes, it’s an SSRI. I’m definitely more depressed now that I have quit.

Yeah I quit it too some months ago because it makes me stupid and dull, as if I'm incapable of perceiving the world and have no personality, no hopes or ambitions. Makes me an NPC. But now I'm forced to take it again because the depression is hurting too much.

 

[Qozumaki]

The thing to note is that we are unfit for life that why we are suffering.

I take this too (escitalopram). 20 mg every day.

Yeah I quit it too some months ago because it makes me stupid and dull, as if I'm incapable of perceiving the world and have no personality, no hopes or ambitions. Makes me an NPC. But now I'm forced to take it again because the depression is hurting too much.

Yeah I actually found your old thread, and asked if you are still using it. You do. Did you ever try vortioxetine like another member suggested?

I’m afraid that’s what I will have to do too.

 

[wereq]

Yeah I actually found your old thread, and asked if you are still using it. You do. Did you ever try vortioxetine like another member suggested?

No man I never used vortioxetine. I've used Paroxetine and Mirtazapine though.

 

[Qozumaki]

No man I never used vortioxetine. I've used Paroxetine and Mirtazapine though.

Is escitalopram the only thing you use right now?

 

[Emba]

It will stop in yer mid 50s

 

[Qozumaki]

It will stop in yer mid 50s

Are you in your 50s? My hats off to you sir.

How does it stop? I thought it would only get worse. All the regret, shame, despair etc and worst of all, longing after things you never experienced.

 

[wereq]

Is escitalopram the only thing you use right now?

Yeah for now.

 

[Emba]

Are you in your 50s? My hats off to you sir.

How does it stop? I thought it would only get worse. All the regret, shame, despair etc and worst of all, longing after things you never experienced.

60+!!! );
You realize that its just a waste of fluids

 

[autistandugly]

It's a normal thing
Inceldom does that to you

 

[autistandugly]

It has gotten so bad that I did it even at food table with my mom today.

This is absolute hell, I was on a medication for some years but quit recently (2 months or so ago ), idk if I should jump back on them or not. While I still felt shit, I feel like it wasn’t this bad. I’m just bed rotting, can’t even cope with video games or whatever.

Sorry dude

 

[ненависть]

You'll need to turn your despair into rage, your rage into anger and let it focus you. Let it drive you to make money and at least buy everything you want or take up extreme hobbies. I do hardcore rock climbing. I want to summit K2 or die trying before I'm 40. I'd love to die on that mountain. Or summit it. Then die.

The anger fuels me bro. I have a really fucked up origin into the "blackpill" there was no such moniker for it when I became awake. I'm old too man, almost 36. Hang in there dude. Don't let the normie scum sex haver cunts win. Don't let them!

This.