I broke my foot on purpose

[Michael15651]

From previous thread:

May 28th

I’m good to return back to work Monday. But I don’t want to go back to a job I hate. The job that’s on the verge of firing me.

I loved being in the hospital. I loved the anesthesia. I loved feeling like I didn’t have to worry about anything.

Now it’s back to reality. My one chance of dying and I fucked it up. I fucking hate myself.

I’m back to work. I got a text today from one of the higher ups. They want to see me tomorrow morning (I work at night) to discuss a mistake I made. I could either be fired or suspended tomorrow.

I purposely threw myself down the stairs and hurt my foot. I needed an excuse. Buy myself time. It feels like the walls are closing in on me. Maybe it’s the steroids talking. Maybe I’m just losing it. I even buzzed my head because I hated what I saw in the mirror.

I didn’t answer him. I’m texting my supervisor (I’m sure he knows I will be suspended) that I fell down the stairs and want to use vacation.

I fucking wish I died that night. The thread where I talked about being sick, I wish the ambulance never came.

The only thing I have going for me is my physique. Everyone is complimenting me

 

[Emba]

Good thing you have another one

 

[psyop]

 

[copemaxx9002]

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[lifesucksandyoudie]

Self inflicted injuries will also help you avoid being drafted by the ZOG. Good to start practicing early.

 

[MoggedByALoli]

Self inflicted injuries will also help you avoid being drafted by the ZOG. Good to start practicing early.

I already have shitty vision, so I should be in the clear, but this is also a good plan B.

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

I already have shitty vision, so I should be in the clear, but this is also a good plan B.

God's one gift for incels and it's only useful when the world goes to shit

 

[MoggedByALoli]

God's one gift for incels and it's only useful when the world goes to shit

Over for glassescels until it's time to die for Zog, lmao.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

I purposely threw myself down the stairs and hurt my foot. I needed an excuse. Buy myself time. It feels like the walls are closing in on me. Maybe it’s the steroids talking. Maybe I’m just losing it.

Jesus. I hope your life somehow magically takes a turn for the better.

I’m texting my supervisor (I’m sure he knows I will be suspended) that I fell down the stairs and want to use vacation.

You have to use vacation that get time off because you broke your foot?

 

[Friezacel]

Just so i get this right, you tried to rope but failed ?

 

[Friezacel]

I didn’t answer him. I’m texting my supervisor (I’m sure he knows I will be suspended) that I fell down the stairs and want to use vacation.

Brootal, in Germany you just get a certificate that you are unable to work and your employer has to pay you full wage for up to 8 weeks

 

[Michael15651]

Just so i get this right, you tried to rope but failed ?

I would never rope, I just needed to injure something as an excuse to skip work.

Jesus. I hope your life somehow magically takes a turn for the better.

You have to use vacation that get time off because you broke your foot?

It won’t, but thanks. I’d give myself another 2-4 months before I’m broke, unemployed, lose everything, and done for.

And yeah

 

[kay']

find a new job mental health is as important as physical

 

[Ahnfeltia]

It won’t, but thanks.

yeah, it never does

I didn't know what else to say tbh. I wanted to say something supportive, but everything else I could think of just rang too hollow.

I’d give myself another 2-4 months before I’m broke, unemployed, lose everything, and done for.

And yeah

may you find some solace in the upcoming months in spite of everything

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Night shifts can be hard but it's not worth making yourself a cripple.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

I didn't know what else to say tbh. I wanted to say something supportive, but everything else I could think of just rang too hollow.