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I cant write to much because its already 0:53 and i must go to work at factory early and want sleep.
But i am tired of crying and hating everything.
All my life was before 13 was a dream in the scandinavian forests i lived in nature.
But then i started communicate in society with people, they all are awful and pure evil, i was hated based on my looks because i am looks ethnic, but i know true that i am half iranian true aryan, but who cares when i am ugly and short.
But this is not the point, scince all my life was trash like every one of this forum.
I am based modernism hater.
I am absolutely confrimed my pedophilia, and rape fantasies because its made by nature.
Femoids still chooses males by nature instincts.
But now i am totally depressed because i saw a woman half year ago at some work, and she was so fuckin good genetically for me, like my dream morphs irl.
I mean i accept that she is 6-7/10 but i rate every female under 8 because i see that females cant be same level as chads. But i am subhuman she cant see irl.
Only time we meet near she looked at me like a trash.
Like a bio trash with derealization eyes.
She was 32 and i am 18.
I am double cucked because i think she is married.
Also i had hard tilt before i meat her and at this fat when i saw her my heart almost stoped.
And next 2 weeks i am just rotted in my bed in room with 7 men fk.
I am not even rotted in phone, i am just crying in my bed and feel so alone and was so hard love her. And theres come the fact when i go to other house and slept alone i started crying much more, scince childhood i am scared of dark all the way.
I cant sleep alone and never slept.
I had my bird with i sleep every night together and dog.
Or i just slept with grandmother or mother and father.
Even with parents i wake up every hour and looked in the dark and just be scared.
So when i slept for first time alone in house in other city i was totally depressed and just started thought this monster won't kill me because how subhuman i am.
And i started double crying because i am trash without wife.
And i am a primitivist and i know that man must be chad and just eat meat, fuck women and sleep.
Not even hunting because its little bit stress, everything for me must do women.
So now imagine all my life females do this for me from my family, but now i am alone subhuman who must get wife with same mentality (impossible in modernism)
And now imagine if i me 174 ltn goes to this woman and saying all this shit like start cooking for me, love me, sleep with me because i am scared, hug me hard and buy or hunt food for me.
I am started laughing then crying again.
And i am know now that hardmaxx is cope and i worked just lost half year, and then i tried to rope. I do something with my hand and lost so much blo0d.
But i started panic and crying because i sart feel lonely and like trash and called doctors , and they said i lodt too kuch blood in this hand thing, and they said i ak idiot and men dont crying, now i am in other city without fucking hand. And i am stop crying because how shitty my situation are.
But i am wont lose this game, i started think i can take 5-7 years and find this woman and r4p3 her or steal her to the my house.
We can contact and meat irl who have same problems but i am will be in moscow hospital for a while
But i am tired of crying and hating everything.
All my life was before 13 was a dream in the scandinavian forests i lived in nature.
But then i started communicate in society with people, they all are awful and pure evil, i was hated based on my looks because i am looks ethnic, but i know true that i am half iranian true aryan, but who cares when i am ugly and short.
But this is not the point, scince all my life was trash like every one of this forum.
I am based modernism hater.
I am absolutely confrimed my pedophilia, and rape fantasies because its made by nature.
Femoids still chooses males by nature instincts.
But now i am totally depressed because i saw a woman half year ago at some work, and she was so fuckin good genetically for me, like my dream morphs irl.
I mean i accept that she is 6-7/10 but i rate every female under 8 because i see that females cant be same level as chads. But i am subhuman she cant see irl.
Only time we meet near she looked at me like a trash.
Like a bio trash with derealization eyes.
She was 32 and i am 18.
I am double cucked because i think she is married.
Also i had hard tilt before i meat her and at this fat when i saw her my heart almost stoped.
And next 2 weeks i am just rotted in my bed in room with 7 men fk.
I am not even rotted in phone, i am just crying in my bed and feel so alone and was so hard love her. And theres come the fact when i go to other house and slept alone i started crying much more, scince childhood i am scared of dark all the way.
I cant sleep alone and never slept.
I had my bird with i sleep every night together and dog.
Or i just slept with grandmother or mother and father.
Even with parents i wake up every hour and looked in the dark and just be scared.
So when i slept for first time alone in house in other city i was totally depressed and just started thought this monster won't kill me because how subhuman i am.
And i started double crying because i am trash without wife.
And i am a primitivist and i know that man must be chad and just eat meat, fuck women and sleep.
Not even hunting because its little bit stress, everything for me must do women.
So now imagine all my life females do this for me from my family, but now i am alone subhuman who must get wife with same mentality (impossible in modernism)
And now imagine if i me 174 ltn goes to this woman and saying all this shit like start cooking for me, love me, sleep with me because i am scared, hug me hard and buy or hunt food for me.
I am started laughing then crying again.
And i am know now that hardmaxx is cope and i worked just lost half year, and then i tried to rope. I do something with my hand and lost so much blo0d.
But i started panic and crying because i sart feel lonely and like trash and called doctors , and they said i lodt too kuch blood in this hand thing, and they said i ak idiot and men dont crying, now i am in other city without fucking hand. And i am stop crying because how shitty my situation are.
But i am wont lose this game, i started think i can take 5-7 years and find this woman and r4p3 her or steal her to the my house.
We can contact and meat irl who have same problems but i am will be in moscow hospital for a while
