Intellectual
Admiral
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- Joined
- Jun 12, 2023
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I don't think I ever truly accepted I was an incel. I felt like a normie who was frustrated I kept striking out. I always held this intrinsic belief that sexlessness was a temporary condition, and within an indeterminate amount of time I'd eventually find a nice girl. I never expected I'd get a virgin or some model, but I thought I'd get a girl. I was even ok with some chubbyness or ugliness but I guess that's too much to ask for. I would go through periods of anger, depression, crying, and EXTREME envy at those who could achieve what I wanted. I watched the years go by as others got to experience and took for granted what I would die for.
I'm starting to no longer feel this way. I'm feeling at peace with myself. I've settled into my post-graduate life, I'm no longer feeling like I must rush to get a girlfriend before some deadline (graduation). This is my new life now. I go to work, I come home, I eat, I watch videos, I read, I sleep. I feel... at home. I cope with poetry, videogames, self-study, intellectualism, and abstract thought. Chad may get sex, but does he analyze complex trends about world history and economics like I do? I know this is cope, but what else should I do? Coping is making me happy, at least relatively. I'm truly starting to accept that I am forever alone, and that's ok, many men throughout history were.
I'm starting to no longer feel this way. I'm feeling at peace with myself. I've settled into my post-graduate life, I'm no longer feeling like I must rush to get a girlfriend before some deadline (graduation). This is my new life now. I go to work, I come home, I eat, I watch videos, I read, I sleep. I feel... at home. I cope with poetry, videogames, self-study, intellectualism, and abstract thought. Chad may get sex, but does he analyze complex trends about world history and economics like I do? I know this is cope, but what else should I do? Coping is making me happy, at least relatively. I'm truly starting to accept that I am forever alone, and that's ok, many men throughout history were.