SuicideFuel I am extremely broken to the core

[Blackpill Monk]

To be honest, I don't know what and how to express my suffering here anymore, I feel nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel complete emptiness, a complete darkness. Years of loneliness, bullying, mocking, family problems has turned me into a living zombie, I have become a completely numb living dead. Living through a continuous PTSD, trauma from the past bullying ,abuses makes me a living dead. Even here on this forum I am not able to express my life experience cuz i am experiencing tremendous trauma, personally I think I feel extremely alienated from this space because no one on here feel or can relate to me that how much problems and suffering I have faced.

Being of 5'2 height, physically unattractive face, physically weak, suffering from Type 1 Diabetes, being high inhib, autistic Neurodivergent in an extremely infinitely corrupt third world country. All these factors completely nuked me. I remember from being child to still today I was randomly bullied mocked , dominated,insulted by everyone just because I looked and acted weird (ugly and autistic) and being physically weak. This mirrors exactly like the survival of fittest, because in a low trust corrupt society being of weak traits that i have, deemed me completely unfit and not fit for survival in these low trust society as Neurotypical/Non-Autistic normies will absolutely dominated and destroyed me as there is no basic rationality and morality here.

At the end I don't know what to do, I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward. I am trapped in the numb darkness and emptiness.

 

[SewerGoat]

5'2... Brutal.

 

[SewerGoat]

At the end I don't know what to do, I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward. I am trapped in the numb darkness and emptiness.

Same for me. Wouldn't be here anymore if i had some guts

 

[fokusin]

Few more moments like this and u will rope it's inevitable

 

[poorenglishcel]

How is cucklege going?

 

[deleted dude]

5'2 is fucking ogre

 

[deleted dude]

hee hover beyond belief

 

[INVERTER]

We have to turn our suffering into music or art somehow for normans to respect it at all.

I used to cope thinking my favorite musicians were just like me only to discover most of them were LARPing like Peter Steele.

 

[subhumanmonkey]

I'm the same minus being 5'2, I find solace in bedrotting and watching anime. Its what keeps me going. You should socially withdraw if you havea the option

 

[EcstasyCel]

I think a lot of people here had experiences so incredibly awful they would never bring it up on here because undusting that memory creates too much pain...

However these memories are still stored subconsciously and create immense rage that makes some of us go ER in the end.

I wonder how you would go about healing from all that trauma rather than suppressing it, because it would just refresh the pain.

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I think a lot of people here had experiences so incredibly awful they would never bring it up on here because undusting that memory creates too much pain...

To be honest, I have experienced so many worst experience I don't have any kind of guts to present here, it gives me and extremely trauma

I wonder how you would go about healing from all that trauma rather than suppressing it, because it would just refresh the pain

I don't know how to heal my pain

 

[The Judge]

I can relate. At this point, nothing could ever fill the void that remains where my soul once was.

Every night, I am haunted by all of the negative experiences I've endured growing up. Every day, I do absolutely nothing as none of my hobbies and/or interests bring me any joy anymore—not even the ones that I used to love. I am only "alive" due to the fact that I lack the courage to finally end myself. Mentally and spiritually, I died a long time ago.

This is what the rest of society will never understand. When you are born a genetic subhuman, you have no reason to be. Even literal waste has more of a purpose than you.

 

[ItsOverMan]

To be honest, I don't know what and how to express my suffering here anymore, I feel nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel complete emptiness, a complete darkness. Years of loneliness, bullying, mocking, family problems has turned me into a living zombie, I have become a completely numb living dead. Living through a continuous PTSD, trauma from the past bullying ,abuses makes me a living dead. Even here on this forum I am not able to express my life experience cuz i am experiencing tremendous trauma, personally I think I feel extremely alienated from this space because no one on here feel or can relate to me that how much problems and suffering I have faced.

Being of 5'2 height, physically unattractive face, physically weak, suffering from Type 1 Diabetes, being high inhib, autistic Neurodivergent in an extremely infinitely corrupt third world country. All these factors completely nuked me. I remember from being child to still today I was randomly bullied mocked , dominated,insulted by everyone just because I looked and acted weird (ugly and autistic) and being physically weak. This mirrors exactly like the survival of fittest, because in a low trust corrupt society being of weak traits that i have, deemed me completely unfit and not fit for survival in these low trust society as Neurotypical/Non-Autistic normies will absolutely dominated and destroyed me as there is no basic rationality and morality here.

At the end I don't know what to do, I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward. I am trapped in the numb darkness and emptiness.

what country are you from?

 

[ItsOverMan]

To be honest, I don't know what and how to express my suffering here anymore, I feel nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel complete emptiness, a complete darkness. Years of loneliness, bullying, mocking, family problems has turned me into a living zombie, I have become a completely numb living dead. Living through a continuous PTSD, trauma from the past bullying ,abuses makes me a living dead. Even here on this forum I am not able to express my life experience cuz i am experiencing tremendous trauma, personally I think I feel extremely alienated from this space because no one on here feel or can relate to me that how much problems and suffering I have faced.

Being of 5'2 height, physically unattractive face, physically weak, suffering from Type 1 Diabetes, being high inhib, autistic Neurodivergent in an extremely infinitely corrupt third world country. All these factors completely nuked me. I remember from being child to still today I was randomly bullied mocked , dominated,insulted by everyone just because I looked and acted weird (ugly and autistic) and being physically weak. This mirrors exactly like the survival of fittest, because in a low trust corrupt society being of weak traits that i have, deemed me completely unfit and not fit for survival in these low trust society as Neurotypical/Non-Autistic normies will absolutely dominated and destroyed me as there is no basic rationality and morality here.

At the end I don't know what to do, I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward. I am trapped in the numb darkness and emptiness.

My brain is so screwed up. My brain hasn't been the same since I had 2 nervous breakdowns in 2012 and 2013. My psychiatrist even said my "brain broke" at that time. One of the nervous breakdowns was because of bullying I was getting at work from my boss.

Plus enduring a life of abuse (abused dog syndrome) on top of that.

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

5'2

Have you considered becoming a janitor yet? Ranjeet, who is a 5'2 balding Indian janitor, ran through his entire high school.

 

[Freixel]

I don't feel anything either

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

I can relate. At this point, nothing could ever fill the void that remains where my soul once was.

Every night, I am haunted by all of the negative experiences I've endured growing up. Every day, I do absolutely nothing as none of my hobbies and/or interests bring me any joy anymore—not even the ones that I used to love. I am only "alive" due to the fact that I lack the courage to finally end myself. Mentally and spiritually, I died a long time ago.

This is what the rest of society will never understand. When you are born a genetic subhuman, you have no reason to be. Even literal waste has more of a purpose than you.

We are nothing but vegetables.

 

[luciferiancel]

Divine light illuminates the path to purpose. Shatter your past beliefs and established prejudice, listen to His Message with humility... We (as incels) are already predisposed to it, naturally separated from the indulgement in carnality that traps them all into a purely mundane paradigm, any of us can see the rotten entrails that hedonistic, disbelieving humanity is strangling itself with. Yet it seems there is a barrier of faith only a few can cross, let arrogance overcome sensibility, let materialist, atheistic, reductive theories and opinions suffice their thirst for knowledge, let their hearts be sealed before the truth. So much suffering for nothing... if redemption is not sought.

 

[samsara]

Sad

 

[Pikacel]

Oof

 

[ihatelife2]

I agree, ostracization loneliness and bullying are very real trauma

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Oof

???
Are you trolling

 

[Pikacel]

???
Are you trolling

No

I’m saying that’s brutal af

 

[tired as fuck]

personally I think I feel extremely alienated from this space because no one on here feel or can relate to me that how much problems and suffering I have faced.

Depends on the quantity and severity of your experiences. Personally I think empathy makes no sense and no one can ever comprehend anyone else's pain caused by problems and experiences, even common ones.

We are all incels here, yet our pasts may be quite different. Even just being an Incel, we can't really comprehend the pain we have because simply put, we don't read others' minds.

At least that is the schizo way I think. Not meant to be an insult or a diminishing of others' experiences. I feel nothing but sympathy for everyone, yet I also can't help but think that we can't understand each other to the fullest. We only understand our selves, and not always either. Whatever.

All this yap to say you're not wrong, at least imo.

 

[Mohamedömar]

Being of 5'2 height

Nigga you are shorter than me
Brutal

 

[Mohamedömar]

I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward

Rope

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Rope

Get lost from here you filthy sandniggers. You are enjoying on my suffering, that's why you are trolling here. Get lost

 

[Mohamedömar]

You are enjoying on my suffering

I suffer but not as bad as you nigga tbh

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I suffer but not as bad as you nigga tbh

I don't know whether you are supporting me or just trolling me

 

[Mohamedömar]

that's why you are trolling here

Nigga don't be sad
just rope

 

[Mohamedömar]

I don't know whether you are supporting me or just trolling me

I suffer from being short, ugly, poor, and virgin maybe till my death
so I suffer like you but I don't have diabetes

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Nigga don't be sad
just rope

Is your Cuckslam teaches you to tell others to do suicide

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I suffer from being short, ugly, poor, and virgin maybe till my death
so I suffer like you but I don't have diabetes

Even I pray that worse enemy of mine shouldn't have it

 

[Moth]

Nigga don't be sad
just rope

I was under the impression that suicide was impermissible in your religion.

 

[Onyx]

I hate how everyone just says his height is brutal. There is really no escape from the heightpill, people here not even being empathetic fucking hell.

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I was under the impression that suicide was impermissible in your religion.

That's why they have suicide bombers in their religion

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I hate how everyone just says his height is brutal. There is really no escape from the heightpill, people here not even being empathetic fucking hell.

Plus NTpill and diabetespill

 

[Moth]

That's why they have suicide bombers in their religion

For some reason, that's an exception.

 

[Mohamedömar]

suicide was impermissible in your religion

Suicide is impermissible and a huge sin in my religion

 

[Mohamedömar]

Even I pray that worse enemy of mine shouldn't have it

I hope you get better soon

 

[Mohamedömar]

Cuckslam teaches you to tell others to do suicide

Nigga I want you to go to hell

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Nigga I want you to go to hell

I want to go along with your mom

 

[Cybersex is our hope]

in an extremely infinitely corrupt third world country

Better than be in first world cucked foid country tho

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Nigga I want you to go to hell

So you are trolling and mocking my suffering. I reported it for ragebaiting

 

[Moth]

Better than be in first world cucked foid country tho

I'm fairly certain the country he's talking about is India.

 

[parbate2025]

To be honest, I don't know what and how to express my suffering here anymore, I feel nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel complete emptiness, a complete darkness. Years of loneliness, bullying, mocking, family problems has turned me into a living zombie, I have become a completely numb living dead. Living through a continuous PTSD, trauma from the past bullying ,abuses makes me a living dead. Even here on this forum I am not able to express my life experience cuz i am experiencing tremendous trauma, personally I think I feel extremely alienated from this space because no one on here feel or can relate to me that how much problems and suffering I have faced.

Being of 5'2 height, physically unattractive face, physically weak, suffering from Type 1 Diabetes, being high inhib, autistic Neurodivergent in an extremely infinitely corrupt third world country. All these factors completely nuked me. I remember from being child to still today I was randomly bullied mocked , dominated,insulted by everyone just because I looked and acted weird (ugly and autistic) and being physically weak. This mirrors exactly like the survival of fittest, because in a low trust corrupt society being of weak traits that i have, deemed me completely unfit and not fit for survival in these low trust society as Neurotypical/Non-Autistic normies will absolutely dominated and destroyed me as there is no basic rationality and morality here.

At the end I don't know what to do, I can't even do suicide because I am extremely weak coward. I am trapped in the numb darkness and emptiness.

I know some people who suffer from family problems but they are carefree cause they have girlfriends and decent sex so they can cope.
We sub5s can't get that so we further go to depression hellhole

 

[Mohamedömar]

I want to go along with your mom

You are a sub1 tbh to have sex

 

[Mohamedömar]

So you are trolling and mocking my suffering.

Nigga
I suffer like you, but I mean that you deserve it

 

[Blackpill Monk]

I mean that you deserve it

Kys sandniggers

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Nigga
I suffer like you, but I mean that you deserve it

Reported for trolling and encouraging suicide