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I was watching a video about this guy who shot up his university in florida and was shocked to see it happened a whole year ago.
I really don't understand how this is possible. It feels like 5 months max since that happened, I vividly remember posting a thread asking people if the dude mogged them.
Absolutely nothing has happened in my life in that time, a whole year just vanished into thin air.
Its like i'm just detaching from time in general, I never know what day it is because it just doesn't matter, I haven't posted here in about 1.5 months but If you asked me before I checked just now I would've estimated it at 2 weeks.
Everythings just a blur. I feel like i'm getting the free trial version of life, I have the slighest surface level awareness of whats going on in the world and the lives of the groids out there; I can see the tiniest sliver through their online presence, through their videos and comments, and I almost feel like them until I go outside and get reminded that i'm a different species. I'm restricted from actually immersing myself in this life, all I can do is watch, I speak hours of inner monologue every day, I think, I ponder, I plan, I hope, yet my situation wouldn't be any different if I didn't speak a single word or think a single thought, no matter my speed my velocity is always 0.
I really don't understand how this is possible. It feels like 5 months max since that happened, I vividly remember posting a thread asking people if the dude mogged them.
Absolutely nothing has happened in my life in that time, a whole year just vanished into thin air.
Its like i'm just detaching from time in general, I never know what day it is because it just doesn't matter, I haven't posted here in about 1.5 months but If you asked me before I checked just now I would've estimated it at 2 weeks.
Everythings just a blur. I feel like i'm getting the free trial version of life, I have the slighest surface level awareness of whats going on in the world and the lives of the groids out there; I can see the tiniest sliver through their online presence, through their videos and comments, and I almost feel like them until I go outside and get reminded that i'm a different species. I'm restricted from actually immersing myself in this life, all I can do is watch, I speak hours of inner monologue every day, I think, I ponder, I plan, I hope, yet my situation wouldn't be any different if I didn't speak a single word or think a single thought, no matter my speed my velocity is always 0.





