SuicideFuel How my 2024 went and how my 2025 is currently going...

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

My life in 2025

• January 2025: Spent the entire month playing vidya, I wasn't happy but very content with life. I was forced to do part-time schooling. My parents said, "I should further my education". For fuck sakes, I went to school for 3 years and I'm still being forced to go again!
• February 2025: I began wageslaving at a job that was actually fun and decent (Ideally something I'd like doing my entire life)
• February - April 2025: I lost the job because of my autism, I was technically good at my job, the only issue is that I could interact with clients and colleagues. My boss said, "You have to eat lunch and socialise with your colleagues, you should build relationships with colleagues". I should be more approachable. How the fuck can I be more approachable if I'm a 5`3, black and ugly???? The real issue is that I couldn't explain technical concepts to non-technical people.
• April - December 2025: I've had a few remote gigs but I'm about to lose my my remote gig pretty soon. I hadn't left the house in like 5-6 months. During this time I only showered like 30-40 times. I was..I am fucking depressed and tired. I would sleep at 05:00 am and wake up and 11:00am, play vidya until 05:00am the next day
• January 2026: I failed a module and I'm going to excluded from my studies. My parents are going to fuck freak out but I might be happy. I probably lost my job already
• Febuary 2026: Hopefully I'll be able to rope
  
  So as you can see aside from being a low IQ, low status, 5`3, black, 3rd worlder, acne-ridden incel. Everything in my life goes wrong. I can't fucking catch a break. I've been eating like shit the past few months. I'll have coffee and cereal for breakfast and eat dinner. I know I'm eating bad because my gut has never been this sore. After most meals I get sulphur burps. I probably have a gut infection or something.

My current issues

• Any excuses that I can tell my parents so they can leave me alone for the year being?
• How can I desensitise myself into roping? I'm genuinely willing to do anything?

Final thoughts
I know a lot of people are here because of foids but tbh last year made me realise that foids are the least of our worries. Like one of those gangsta once said, "Life's a bitch". Life is fucking out to get us truecels. While we were studying and LDARing in uni, chad was fucking the lecturer and now works a 6 figure job while we rot. This isn't some kind hyperbole, I literally checked someone on linkedin from my class who made it with a D average (Don't ask me how I now but I know). He is now working a super cozy job after having the most fun in uni whilst i'm still rotting in my room. Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful by lil peep (I don't listen to him but I enjoy this song)
I know that it hurts sometimes, but it's beautiful
Working every day, now you're bleeding through your cuticles
Passing through a portal as you're sittin' in your cubicle
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

Tryin' to keep your cool at your grandfather's funeral
Finding out eventually the feeling wasn't mutual
You were not invited 'cause you're nothing like the usual
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

You wanna see your friends, but you're stuck inside a hospital
Doctor walks in and he tells you that it's terminal
Tumor in your brain and they're sayin' it's inoperable
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

They'll kill your little brother and they'll tell you he's a criminal
They'll fucking kill you too so you better not get physical
Welcome to America, the type of shit is typical
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

Wake up in the morning, now you're doing the impossible
Find out what's important, now you're feeling philosophical
When I die, I'll pack my bags, move somewhere more affordable
Isn't life horrible
I think that life is horrible

You think she's adorable, she thinks that you're intolerable
You think you can do it, but your chances are improbable
Once you feel unstoppable, you run into an obstacle
Isn't life comical
I think that life is comical

And if you ever need a friend, then you got me
And in the end, when I die, would you watch me
And if I try suicide, would you stop me
Would you help me get a grip or would you drop me
Run away, make friends with the moon
Why you trippin', you'll be with your friends soon
There comes a time everybody meets the same fate
I think I'ma die alone inside my room

 

[Sans]

February - April 2025: I lost the job because of my autism, I was technically good at my job, the only issue is that I could interact with clients and colleagues. My boss said, "You have to eat lunch and socialise with your colleagues, you should build relationships with colleagues". I should be more approachable. How the fuck can I be more approachable if I'm a 5`3, black and ugly???? The real issue is that I couldn't explain technical concepts to non-technical people.

That’s some bullshit, imagine being a reject all your life through no fault of your own and then being fired beside of it? Reminds me of this meme:

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

That’s some bullshit, imagine being a reject all your life through no fault of your own and then being fired beside of it? Reminds me of this meme:
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It's soo stupid that people think that work is a friend group or anything. Normies are fucking stupid

 

[VanGobbel]

dw 2026 will be worse somehow

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

dw 2026 will be worse somehow

It possibly can't get worse!

 

[Dead End]

That’s some bullshit, imagine being a reject all your life through no fault of your own and then being fired beside of it? Reminds me of this meme:
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How does your title end? "I'm not a cuck, I'm an incel. Incels are...". Incels are what?

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

How does your title end? "I'm not a cuck, I'm an incel. Incels are...". Incels are what?

I wanted the title to be suspenseful I guess

 

[Dead End]

I wanted the title to be suspenseful I guess

You wanted the title to be suspenseful? Is he your alt or something, lol

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

You wanted the title to be suspenseful? Is he your alt or something, lol

Joined Oct 3, 2025 Posts 4,351

 

[Dead End]

Joined Oct 3, 2025 Posts 4,351

What? I know those are my stats, but what are you even trying to point out?

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

What? I know those are my stats, but what are you even trying to point out?

Joined Oct 3, 2025 Posts 4,352

 

[Dead End]

Joined Oct 3, 2025 Posts 4,352

Impressive, isn't it?

 

[Sans]

How does your title end? "I'm not a cuck, I'm an incel. Incels are...". Incels are what?

It’s just that. “Incels are…”

Spoiler: Explanation

I don’t know if you’ve ever seen Squid Game, but at the very end of the last season, the protagonist kills himself, and his final line is: “I’m not a horse. I’m a human. Humans are…”

 

[Dead End]

It’s just that. “Incels are…”

Spoiler: Explanation

I don’t know if you’ve ever seen Squid Game, but at the very end of the last season, the protagonist kills himself, and his final line is: “I’m not a horse. I’m a human. Humans are…”

I see. Thanks for the explanation.

 

[Balding Subhuman]

Well I mean that is true, as an incel not getting women is the least of our worries. Being an ugly low status man comes with way worse problems, like having to play office politics with normies at your workplace. Or suffering from mental health issues due to being unloved all your life, or just permanent depression and staleness.

 

[bronxpete]

My life in 2025

• January 2025: Spent the entire month playing vidya, I wasn't happy but very content with life. I was forced to do part-time schooling. My parents said, "I should further my education". For fuck sakes, I went to school for 3 years and I'm still being forced to go again!
• February 2025: I began wageslaving at a job that was actually fun and decent (Ideally something I'd like doing my entire life)
• February - April 2025: I lost the job because of my autism, I was technically good at my job, the only issue is that I could interact with clients and colleagues. My boss said, "You have to eat lunch and socialise with your colleagues, you should build relationships with colleagues". I should be more approachable. How the fuck can I be more approachable if I'm a 5`3, black and ugly???? The real issue is that I couldn't explain technical concepts to non-technical people.
• April - December 2025: I've had a few remote gigs but I'm about to lose my my remote gig pretty soon. I hadn't left the house in like 5-6 months. During this time I only showered like 30-40 times. I was..I am fucking depressed and tired. I would sleep at 05:00 am and wake up and 11:00am, play vidya until 05:00am the next day
• January 2026: I failed a module and I'm going to excluded from my studies. My parents are going to fuck freak out but I might be happy. I probably lost my job already
• Febuary 2026: Hopefully I'll be able to rope
  
  So as you can see aside from being a low IQ, low status, 5`3, black, 3rd worlder, acne-ridden incel. Everything in my life goes wrong. I can't fucking catch a break. I've been eating like shit the past few months. I'll have coffee and cereal for breakfast and eat dinner. I know I'm eating bad because my gut has never been this sore. After most meals I get sulphur burps. I probably have a gut infection or something.

My current issues

• Any excuses that I can tell my parents so they can leave me alone for the year being?
• How can I desensitise myself into roping? I'm genuinely willing to do anything?

Final thoughts
I know a lot of people are here because of foids but tbh last year made me realise that foids are the least of our worries. Like one of those gangsta once said, "Life's a bitch". Life is fucking out to get us truecels. While we were studying and LDARing in uni, chad was fucking the lecturer and now works a 6 figure job while we rot. This isn't some kind hyperbole, I literally checked someone on linkedin from my class who made it with a D average (Don't ask me how I now but I know). He is now working a super cozy job after having the most fun in uni whilst i'm still rotting in my room. Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful by lil peep (I don't listen to him but I enjoy this song)
I know that it hurts sometimes, but it's beautiful
Working every day, now you're bleeding through your cuticles
Passing through a portal as you're sittin' in your cubicle
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

Tryin' to keep your cool at your grandfather's funeral
Finding out eventually the feeling wasn't mutual
You were not invited 'cause you're nothing like the usual
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

You wanna see your friends, but you're stuck inside a hospital
Doctor walks in and he tells you that it's terminal
Tumor in your brain and they're sayin' it's inoperable
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

They'll kill your little brother and they'll tell you he's a criminal
They'll fucking kill you too so you better not get physical
Welcome to America, the type of shit is typical
Isn't life beautiful
I think that life is beautiful

Wake up in the morning, now you're doing the impossible
Find out what's important, now you're feeling philosophical
When I die, I'll pack my bags, move somewhere more affordable
Isn't life horrible
I think that life is horrible

You think she's adorable, she thinks that you're intolerable
You think you can do it, but your chances are improbable
Once you feel unstoppable, you run into an obstacle
Isn't life comical
I think that life is comical

And if you ever need a friend, then you got me
And in the end, when I die, would you watch me
And if I try suicide, would you stop me
Would you help me get a grip or would you drop me
Run away, make friends with the moon
Why you trippin', you'll be with your friends soon
There comes a time everybody meets the same fate
I think I'ma die alone inside my room

At least you have work experience and some money however african parents aren't forgiving like white parents when it comes to dropping out of uni because youre an investment meanwhile some nigga called Riaan is on his 5th gap year At home

Good luck this year

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

At least you have work experience and some money however african parents aren't forgiving like white parents when it comes to dropping out of uni because youre an investment meanwhile some nigga called Riaan is on his 5th gap year At home

Good luck this year

Yeah it's truly over mang, Goodluck to you hopefully you get a 6`5 ebony, tatted, big booty'd stacy

 

[92 drowsiness?]

``just be sociable bro´´

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

``just be sociable bro´´

Yes bro, just touch grass and everything in life will be okay

 

[Pikacel]

That’s some bullshit, imagine being a reject all your life through no fault of your own and then being fired beside of it? Reminds me of this meme:
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Cortisol pump

 

[Pikacel]

Well I mean that is true, as an incel not getting women is the least of our worries. Being an ugly low status man comes with way worse problems, like having to play office politics with normies at your workplace. Or suffering from mental health issues due to being unloved all your life, or just permanent depression and staleness.

It is what it is. We can’t escape the reality of normies using us as a scapegoat

 

[autisticsoy]

The part you wrote about losing your job due to your autism is the part I fear about when inevitably I have to go try for a job that I would be screwed over a part I have no control such as my genetics even if I qualify because of thats.

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

The part you wrote about losing your job due to your autism is the part I fear about when inevitably I have to go try for a job that I would be screwed over a part I have no control such as my genetics even if I qualify because of thats.

I have no idea how the fuck autists can mask, it's such a foreign concept to me. I wouldn't recommend listing your disability when applying for jobs as well. You'll likely just get blacklisted or maybe that's just a regional issue. My best advice is fake it till you make it, if you can mask do it