My mental problems stem from the lifelong psychological damage inflicted upon me because of my looks.
It is not hyperbole to say that I might possibly be the least-attractive man ever to exist. I am in my late-30s and no woman has ever found me attractive. Not in middle school, not in high school, not at university, not in the university dorms, not in my early professional life, and certainly not now. Online and offline, it's the same story. Females are repelled by my abhorrent face! I was also bullied mercilessly because of my deformities that I consequently remain self-conscious about to this very day. And every time a woman reacts to me in absolute horror -- even running away from me as soon as she looks at me -- I am reminded of my genetic hopelessness.
I wish I could just fuck off to the countryside with my non-judgmental lovedolls and never have to go into civilization again because the constant remainders of my ugliness are hard to accept even after all this time. I'm fucking sick of it and will probably snap at the next foid who makes me feel like such an undesirable and unworthy piece of trash. I did nothing to deserve this.