Mecoja
I'm done with everything
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I always had general anxiety, worrying too much over anything, thinking on possible scenarios how things can go wrong and torture myself with it. One year ago was really bad, i had this constant fear of being attacked, i had trouble leaving my house. One night one cuck neighbour who was a friend of my sister came at our gate yelling that he will set our house on fire if my sister will again meddle in his marriage, he repeated twice "no matter who will be at home" alluding that he doesnt care if my little nephew is inside of the house.
I was pissed, i was full of rage because someone thinks he has the right to treat us like that. I went to the gate to confront him, he was leaving yelling and my anxiety kicked in and my body started to shiver and i chickened out. I started locking the gate at night and i never left my nephew alone to play near the gate or outside. Then i started watching youtube videos about knives and guns, self defence videos, how to carry concealed knife. I bought online a Gerber strongarm knife and i carried it everywhere with me.(pic is from the internet, i have the exact same one)
I started running scenarios in my head how he would attack me and how i would cut him open. When i saw him in the street i would stare at him provoking him to make the first move. I stopped feeling so much fear because i replaced it with anger. If something happened im not sure i wouldnt panic and anxiety would take over.
Few weeks later his wife sent letter into our mailbox begging my sister for help because he beat her up and humiliated everyday and tried to kill her. I said to my sister not to interfere because it doesnt concerns us, fuck them both. He was a low tier bald normie and a huge cuck, his wife prostituted behind his back, half of the neighborhood fucked her and even my hypocrite false morale dad tried to fuck her, that was probably the reason why he was mad at us. After that i heard he was in a hospital because he drunk some kind of acid and week later he died. I was so happy and thanked God because finally something turned out well. Since then i feel much less fear and anxiety if i have to confront someone, also i bought big chunky pocket knife with sturdy framelock.
I was pissed, i was full of rage because someone thinks he has the right to treat us like that. I went to the gate to confront him, he was leaving yelling and my anxiety kicked in and my body started to shiver and i chickened out. I started locking the gate at night and i never left my nephew alone to play near the gate or outside. Then i started watching youtube videos about knives and guns, self defence videos, how to carry concealed knife. I bought online a Gerber strongarm knife and i carried it everywhere with me.(pic is from the internet, i have the exact same one)
I started running scenarios in my head how he would attack me and how i would cut him open. When i saw him in the street i would stare at him provoking him to make the first move. I stopped feeling so much fear because i replaced it with anger. If something happened im not sure i wouldnt panic and anxiety would take over.
Few weeks later his wife sent letter into our mailbox begging my sister for help because he beat her up and humiliated everyday and tried to kill her. I said to my sister not to interfere because it doesnt concerns us, fuck them both. He was a low tier bald normie and a huge cuck, his wife prostituted behind his back, half of the neighborhood fucked her and even my hypocrite false morale dad tried to fuck her, that was probably the reason why he was mad at us. After that i heard he was in a hospital because he drunk some kind of acid and week later he died. I was so happy and thanked God because finally something turned out well. Since then i feel much less fear and anxiety if i have to confront someone, also i bought big chunky pocket knife with sturdy framelock.
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