Progeny of Horus
Cerebral Rapist
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I'm not talking about autism as an actual medical condition as I never been diagnosed with it, but rather autism in the conventional or metaphorical sense. I.e: someone who's very socially introverted and anxious, lacks in dexterity and motor skills, has mostly indoors hobbies and is completely disinterested in social dynamics and the conventional means of communicating/building relationships. I completely despise small talk, pandering to females, faking excitement at normie's constant brainfarts and clown moves etc.. yet I'm still not a complete schizo who's actually completely fine with living all by himself, so loneliness does strike hard from time to time.
Over the years I have attained very few good male friends, but nowhere near enough to get into social circles to eventually get into a relationship. Dating apps won't work (which I already did try anyway) since females would eventually sense my 'autism' thru my bio or the texting phase and I'm obviously not good looking enough to hax through all of that. The worst part is that I don't get avoided or rejected for being "too awkward" or such, but rather people tend to label me as a "narcissist" or an "asshole" and demonize me simply for being my true self so they could feel better about cutting me off.
Maybe if I get a doctorate and get moderately rich I'll have a better time???
Over the years I have attained very few good male friends, but nowhere near enough to get into social circles to eventually get into a relationship. Dating apps won't work (which I already did try anyway) since females would eventually sense my 'autism' thru my bio or the texting phase and I'm obviously not good looking enough to hax through all of that. The worst part is that I don't get avoided or rejected for being "too awkward" or such, but rather people tend to label me as a "narcissist" or an "asshole" and demonize me simply for being my true self so they could feel better about cutting me off.
Maybe if I get a doctorate and get moderately rich I'll have a better time???