i feel like if you’re not on your most talkative behavior they’re likely not going to be interested in it and let you down as softly as possible, common interests aren’t necessarily the initial spark wanting to make it last but even with common interests guaranteed that doesn’t mean the quiet disconnection isn’t there and that’s often the only puck left behind as wanton aces for the conversational substance history and whatever you thought it was. what haunts me is i could go without talking to a soul and it’d undoubtedly preserve my long term voice, trolling others requires optimistic belief in expectational-reciprocal toleration and known but excitable sensitive conditions to labor consistent optimism. what disturbs me is there’s no natural version of optimism as long as you decide your private voice is the antithesis for it