Physically and Mentally Abusive mother, beta Bux father never stood up for me....this fucked me up at school and home.
Was bullied at school, because I didn't know how to stand up for myself.... literally had a bucket of shit thrown at me when I was like 8 or 9, I knew something was wrong at that moment. 6 year Olds are allowed to change their gender...so I'm fucking allowed to choose the moment I got fucked up. Second moment that broke me was when I was with 4 guy friends and 2 girls....we were still in our mid teens, the girls didn't hug me like they did the other guys, just shook my hand (what the fuck) then we took a group photo which I was eventually cropped out of when it went up on Facebook.....to make things worse, I could be cropped out cleaning so one of my friends had gone to the effort to blur out and blend on my leg......
Eventually I grew up with no intimacy, no relationships, no feelings, girls would tease and bully me, even when I was alone, people go out their way to find me and give me a hard time. I wasn't particularly ugly, just short and had no spine. I hated my mother and by extension hated women. I only get horny, don't feel like I can ever love. As my bio says, being short, diabetic, balding, narc mother....it's a recipe for disaster.