TollieRobertis419
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Mine is so bad that I would exhaust myself to sleep deprivation till I'm tired of enacting it. I would literally run around back and forth in the house imagining that I'm charging at my bullies. The mattresses, every boxes and stuff in our house have a lot of knife cuts in it. My punching bag is worn out from getting hit by my lock in a sock too many times by me. I destroyed a chair because I hit it so hard with a lock in a sock due to too much anger. I damaged a lot of stuff in my house, because for every revenge fantasy, I want to always remind myself of how I'm capable of destroying them now. I would often never stop hitting a stuff because a memory of bullies saying to me "punch me again!" and "say it louder!" (when I fought back at them) would play in my head and it would make me think that I'm not strong enough so I would go full force on hitting the stuff repeatedly and rapidly while I shout as loud as I could as if I'm fighting a person who killed my loved ones. This shit is really exhausting because this happens almost everyday.
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