It’s very difficult to hone your social skills when no one wants to fucking talk to you as it is in my case. Or they’re just fiddling on their phone using it as a shield so they don’t have to see my face
Jestermaxxing made me feel like a God, only to realize I was being used and abused as an object of entertainment; nobody takes you seriously if the funny object acts serious, and that realization destroyed my social skills and led to negative interactions which further ingrained fear memories.
That's the problem with social skills. They are not a SKILL, they are honed by positive and negative external stimuli. If your interactions are negative, KOR expression will be raised so that fight or flight response increases, and social interactions become painful and anxiety inducing.
It's natural, and God's way of telling you it's over and to hermitmaxx.
There's no point in trying over and over if every time your interactions are negative. It just further ingrains the subconscious fear memory.
Chad has an over-expressed MOR opioid axis due to constant praise and positive interactions by everyone, same with Stacey, so social interactions become... euphoric. Yes, euphoric, due to endogenous opioid release, whereas we have over-expressed KOR which is the dysphoric, anxiety, depression inducing opioid from hell.