its been a while guys ,im pretty sure most of you guys don't even remember me and the people i've talked with and related to alot over the years seemed to have vanished completely like @napoleandegeso and @thelastgerman and some currycels who apparently lived in the same city as me (nyc) ,who gave me some good advice on what to do moving forward, like joining the army. It's been 2 years after I deleted my @truefaithneworder account after a bout of depression and silently vanished from incels.is due to a mental breakdown I had after finding out my older sister was dating some black guy from work.This led me to being increasingly consumed by alot of rage and despair.I made alot of rambling ,rage induced,barely coherent drunk shitposts which many found amusing but unfortunately led me to being bullied by some other unsavory incels.I was being mocked alot by these 2 or 3 people in every post I made ,calling me a depressive cuck for not taking things into my own hands and going ER on them and many other choice words were said back and forth.
I felt pretty betrayed because i never got into any argument with people on here and didn't know how to respond to them.It felt like i was being attacked by ITcels but had no rebuttal because everything they said were true.I was completely helpless to do anything at all in my life being a, shut in NEET with no money or job and being a highschool drop out who lives with his parents.On top of that i'm an absolute coward who clings to life regardless of how shitty it is and will never have the ability to go off the rails unless in a fit of madness.In my 2 years away from this forum ,i was actually able to achieve absolutely nothing in my life and just played video games 10 hours a day,got drunk on cheap beer and jerked off every day like I always did and now my sister is getting married to that nigger which led me back here.Although now I'm over my rage, I feel this sense of acceptance over my predicament and this complete detachment from my family.One thing is looking better for me though, I'm in the process of getting a TLC license soon and will probably be able to drive for uber soon ,I plan on driving full time for 60 hours a week for the next year or two and than buying a homestead somewhere in the country side or in another country altogether where i can spend the rest of my life away from treacherous humanity in peace and quiet. I decided against joining the army after I realized how shitty the pay and hours would be compared to the ease of driving uber and that a person with zero social skills would probably get bullied alot.Also, in regards to me getting a significant other or girlfriend,I've comepletely given up.No girls would ever love a short subhuman brown muslimcel like me but perhaps I will one day have enough money to pay for sex.Although that's not something I don't look forward to.I'm glad to be back
I felt pretty betrayed because i never got into any argument with people on here and didn't know how to respond to them.It felt like i was being attacked by ITcels but had no rebuttal because everything they said were true.I was completely helpless to do anything at all in my life being a, shut in NEET with no money or job and being a highschool drop out who lives with his parents.On top of that i'm an absolute coward who clings to life regardless of how shitty it is and will never have the ability to go off the rails unless in a fit of madness.In my 2 years away from this forum ,i was actually able to achieve absolutely nothing in my life and just played video games 10 hours a day,got drunk on cheap beer and jerked off every day like I always did and now my sister is getting married to that nigger which led me back here.Although now I'm over my rage, I feel this sense of acceptance over my predicament and this complete detachment from my family.One thing is looking better for me though, I'm in the process of getting a TLC license soon and will probably be able to drive for uber soon ,I plan on driving full time for 60 hours a week for the next year or two and than buying a homestead somewhere in the country side or in another country altogether where i can spend the rest of my life away from treacherous humanity in peace and quiet. I decided against joining the army after I realized how shitty the pay and hours would be compared to the ease of driving uber and that a person with zero social skills would probably get bullied alot.Also, in regards to me getting a significant other or girlfriend,I've comepletely given up.No girls would ever love a short subhuman brown muslimcel like me but perhaps I will one day have enough money to pay for sex.Although that's not something I don't look forward to.I'm glad to be back
