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I'm used to the fact that I won't have sex, or a relationship, or admiration from females. I spent my whole life without it. Even if suddenly, a perfect woman offered herself to me, I honestly don't know if it would help. I very rarely find things related to celibacy weighing on my mind throughout the day. I don't want to be a chad, I don't want to be in the upper echelons of the male race, I don't even want to be attractive. All I want, is to be average. I honestly think that would bring me happiness, or at least, enable me, put me in the position to find my own happiness, in other, non-sexual ways. At least I would be treated as a man, and not some out of place, unpleasant creep.
It isn't the absence of outstanding traits that is the cause of my misery, it is the presence of vastly inferior ones.
How can I ever hope to escape feeling so awful when most men I see I am dirt compared to, a total subhuman?
The most prominent of my insecurities is height, obviously. I'd be beyond satisfied at 5'10, 5'11. It would be another world. 6 feet and above, that would be godlike, but unnecessary. Unless you are a manlet, you cannot imagine what it's like to be physically below everyone else, like a child. I don't believe all tallcels are volcel, of course not. But fuck... you cannot imagine what it is like, being short, there is no escape from it in any area of life, how threatened and paranoid you feel. It drives me insane, without exaggeration, just going outside when I am so small drives me insane.
Not that I am some handsome manlet. I'm fucking ugly, uglier than anyone I've seen in the ratings thread so far. Not hideous, elephant man tier, that would have everyone staring as soon as I entered a room, but bad. Bad enough that I would still be incel if I was taller. Probably a 1 or 2 out of 10, a completely non-sexual entity. It's not even just my face, my body is weird too. I honestly believe I must have some sort of un-diagnosed genetic defect. I look like I have a man's head on a child's body, it's like it hasn't grown since I was a kid, it still has that soft, gender neutral, undeveloped look. And, while I never would be able to use it anyway, having a fucking tiny dick is maddening, as well. There is nothing more emasculating, no deeper secret shame a person can have. I could be a 10/10 in every other way, and seriously, having such a small member would still cloud my mind, I might still be as suicidal as I am with all my other issues. You cannot feel like a man like this, it is impossible.
Top it all off with a frail, uneasy, dull voice, being far from NT, and poor health, and fuck...just ROT, boyo, it never began, there are no roads for me to take, lmao.
Just make me an average white dude, with a decent background, in a decent location, and I'd be making shit happen. I wouldn't be wasting my time here. I wouldn't be slaying, or even dating, but I'd at least be living, rather than hiding in darkness, waiting for the end, you know?
I'd urge those of you who are still young, average, or above, to go out and try your hardest for a few years, and not look back at places like this, or the idea of LDARing for a loooooong while, for your own damn sake.
It isn't the absence of outstanding traits that is the cause of my misery, it is the presence of vastly inferior ones.
How can I ever hope to escape feeling so awful when most men I see I am dirt compared to, a total subhuman?
The most prominent of my insecurities is height, obviously. I'd be beyond satisfied at 5'10, 5'11. It would be another world. 6 feet and above, that would be godlike, but unnecessary. Unless you are a manlet, you cannot imagine what it's like to be physically below everyone else, like a child. I don't believe all tallcels are volcel, of course not. But fuck... you cannot imagine what it is like, being short, there is no escape from it in any area of life, how threatened and paranoid you feel. It drives me insane, without exaggeration, just going outside when I am so small drives me insane.
Not that I am some handsome manlet. I'm fucking ugly, uglier than anyone I've seen in the ratings thread so far. Not hideous, elephant man tier, that would have everyone staring as soon as I entered a room, but bad. Bad enough that I would still be incel if I was taller. Probably a 1 or 2 out of 10, a completely non-sexual entity. It's not even just my face, my body is weird too. I honestly believe I must have some sort of un-diagnosed genetic defect. I look like I have a man's head on a child's body, it's like it hasn't grown since I was a kid, it still has that soft, gender neutral, undeveloped look. And, while I never would be able to use it anyway, having a fucking tiny dick is maddening, as well. There is nothing more emasculating, no deeper secret shame a person can have. I could be a 10/10 in every other way, and seriously, having such a small member would still cloud my mind, I might still be as suicidal as I am with all my other issues. You cannot feel like a man like this, it is impossible.
Top it all off with a frail, uneasy, dull voice, being far from NT, and poor health, and fuck...just ROT, boyo, it never began, there are no roads for me to take, lmao.
Just make me an average white dude, with a decent background, in a decent location, and I'd be making shit happen. I wouldn't be wasting my time here. I wouldn't be slaying, or even dating, but I'd at least be living, rather than hiding in darkness, waiting for the end, you know?
I'd urge those of you who are still young, average, or above, to go out and try your hardest for a few years, and not look back at places like this, or the idea of LDARing for a loooooong while, for your own damn sake.
