My paranoia has been getting worse lately. Everyday I feel like someone is spying on me and trying to harm me or ruin my life. If you are wondering why I stopped posting as much as I used to, this is one of the reasons why. It feels like just using this forum actively put me on a watchlist of sorts no matter if I posted something incriminating or not.
Other than that, when I go out in public I can't stop thinking that some foid is going to report me to the police just for essentially being an ugly autist and I'm going to be arrested for life as an innocent man. It happened before and I can imagine it will continue happening in the future. How I see it is, as an outcast, the outside world is dangerous to you so you have to thread carefully after all but that is it for the rambling.
Other than that, when I go out in public I can't stop thinking that some foid is going to report me to the police just for essentially being an ugly autist and I'm going to be arrested for life as an innocent man. It happened before and I can imagine it will continue happening in the future. How I see it is, as an outcast, the outside world is dangerous to you so you have to thread carefully after all but that is it for the rambling.
