Mortis
The Senator of Suffering & Minister of Misery
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I got diagnosed with autism at 16 because my teachers urged my mother to test me for it. I first was angry thinking it was absolutely bogus for me to be an autist. I never really saw it and still don't see it, but ostensibly I have it.
The thing that bummed me out is that I never had any hyperfixations? That seemed to be the only part of autism that is semi useful and intresting but I genuinely don't have any hyperfixations at all. I like politics, history, and philosophy I guess but I just never really dive deep into the subjects? I always was very empty and lacked drive to do anything at all. I am buying books about the subjects and save stuff I want to read but never really come around to it? I just don't feel motivated to do anything at all?
I am genuinely not commited to anything. I really get the short end of the stick when it comes to everything.
How am I getting the subhuman version of mental illnesses? What have I done to deserve this? It's like having Tapeworms but still gaining weight, like nigga atleast give me something.
The thing that bummed me out is that I never had any hyperfixations? That seemed to be the only part of autism that is semi useful and intresting but I genuinely don't have any hyperfixations at all. I like politics, history, and philosophy I guess but I just never really dive deep into the subjects? I always was very empty and lacked drive to do anything at all. I am buying books about the subjects and save stuff I want to read but never really come around to it? I just don't feel motivated to do anything at all?
I am genuinely not commited to anything. I really get the short end of the stick when it comes to everything.
How am I getting the subhuman version of mental illnesses? What have I done to deserve this? It's like having Tapeworms but still gaining weight, like nigga atleast give me something.